--11:41 PM August 11th 2024--
Hello! I decided to take this opportunity to write a journal after so long! Felt like connecting with those here with a casual journal and such. Trying something new so let's hope this works out and being able to keep it going!

Let's go ahead and establish what has happened, because it's hard to ignore it. With Dragoneer's unfortunate passing. It's really strange to think he's gone. It felt like he was going to be around with us... till the end of time. When I hopped out of the shower, dried up, then checked my phone, it happened that night. It took me away for a second. It had to settle in my brain for awhile. Dragoneer is gone. It felt like a bad dream... waiting to wake up and seeing him tweet again on Twitter. It's definitely gonna be hard to not GET anymore updates from him either. I never knew em personally. I knew his position in the fandom but never really interacted or such. He's following me on Twitter, maybe on FA and such. Maybe he's commented on my stuff, too. Yet, we just never talked to each other. I always felt like he was one of those guys that is waaaay up there in the leaderboards. Like, yeah I could send him a note and ask if he wants to chill and chat sometime but just never felt the need to. I don't wanna be another voice in the noise in his notes or dm's, yknow? Dragoneer had that... celebrity vibe. Someone you can't just walk up to and say "Hey what's up!" and just get on a personal level with someone. Who knows. Maybe we woulda chat. Either way, Im happy he was following me and such. I can rest easy with the fact he probably liked my art and it got his attention for a few seconds.
May he rest in peace, same goes for his family, friends, and anyone really close to him. Without him, this funny site wouldn't be around. I know others are behind the scenes and such, thank you to you guys but I think it's important where credit is due. Thank you Dragoneer. God bless <3

Next up, let's talk about my life real quick. I moved out of my dad's place and moved into a new place with my cousin. We are now living in an apartment together. Everything is set, it's just getting used to this kind of living. I'd wake up and dad would already have things to tell me to do or an agenda for me to follow. Now, I make the agenda! Awesome! Now it's just falling in LINE to that agenda. Keeping the area nice and tidy, going grocery shopping, cooking at the right time so Im not eating late, and getting used to having my own space. Yeah I have my cousin here but we kinda do our own thing. Right now, Im kinda alone to myself. Currently listening to EQUIP's album " I Dreamed of a Palace in the Sky". Very good stuff. Anyways! It's weird living on my own, paying for my own bills and such. Im definitely gonna have to get on with commissions and push back at these bills. Getting to work on time as well. Work and traffic take up MOST of my time around these parts. Coming home is sucha drag. I immediately flop in bed and actually passed out! It's not a good feeling. Sure some of my friends have said that's fine, but I like doing stuff as soon as I get home! Like DRAWING.

Drawing. Yes! So it's hard to work on art when you come home exhausted from work and traffic. Kinda just wanna shut off my brain and sleep. I have gotten better though! Im starting to immediately get to my daily chores when I get home. Avoiding my bed entirely. Not even to sit down and untie my shoes. However, with all this good time managing and such, Im still failing to draw. I've kinda gotten burned out. yeah, everything I was drawing didn't feel right. It felt like I was back to square one with art. Started all over. Was having a hard time drawing my fox for awhile. Thankfully, I've just been doodling random stuff, kinda writing ideas in the meantime so Im just not doing anything. Working on my characters, maybe some scenarios I wanna put em in. Maybe one day I'll spill what I've been cooking up. Here's hoping! So yeah, Im trying to get back in the swing for art. I know I posted a few things back but it felt weird. It must've been Art Fight. I'll be sure to post my entries. During Art Fight, I was posting quite a storm, I had grand plans to attack all who crossed my path! Buuuuuuut work and such got the best of me. Im just glad I participated at the very least AND for the first time too! Definitely gained some experience for the future! I'll definitely be back with more oomph! *sparkle eyes* Now, back to the topic at hand though. I will be working on more art, some personal projects, trades and other goodies for you all! Hopefully open some commissions in the future too, I could reaaally use the money right about now! Im not down in the dust but man, I'd love to not have the water up to my knees.

I think that's about all to report! Thank you all for reading if you did, I'll try to do more of these and maybe write some ideas for you all to weigh in with your comments, suggestions, whatever you may have! Maybe I'll even try to do shout out to those who watch me! Thank you guys who did either way! I appreciate the watches, comments and faves! Until then, I'll see you guys later! Have a good week, goodnight or rest of your day!
See you around!