I've currently only raised 18% of the money I needed for August, and the month is nearly over.
I've lost a lot of time this month due to my hand and other health issues, trying to get those dealt with but much like just living itself that costs time and money.

I'm not in a good position right now. I tried applying to two nearby jobs, both fell on deaf ears.
There's been barely more than 1 or 2 comm inquires this month. Interest in my art has already dried up.

I don't know how to sell myself beyond what I've done so far.
Been thinking of trying a sketch-based growth drive, but much like my earlier YCH plans, I haven't been able to get those started yet. If there's no interest in comms, why should I expect there to be interest in anything else I might make.

I'm not capable of grinding/hustle/gig whatever that's a necessity now. My life's goal isn't even to be able to animate regularly anymore, or make my Isle setting, I just want an actual week off. Like not cause of injury or exhaustion, but an actual week off, in full health, with nothing to do.

But no, no time off, I'm so far behind on bills. I have nothing to fall back on, nowhere to go, no way to get out of the 16k debt that's left. And no ones cares, cause who the hell am I, no one, just some organic commodity that stopped being useful, not productive enough. There's nothing I can do.