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Random Vent - SL Furry?
16 years ago
Blah, since I've pretty much given up on LJ just gonna vent here a bit.
I think I'm becoming an SL only furry. =_= It's kinda sad and I dunno how to feel about it but I find it becoming more and more true.
My latest commissions which I still am owed about 1 from one artist, 3 from another, and 2 from another one which have taken months now with no work (kinda urks me but meh I've learned my lesson now). Kinda drills into it me not wanting art cause I'm mildly feeling a bit screwed over.
Also furry cons just aren't appealing, I feel like I lack the connection or social butterflyness that many have and the excess money and time it takes to even do it all.
I am happy and do not EVER regret having my fursuit, I don't need to go to a con to don it or feel sad because I'm not going to a con and such means I have or don't have to wear it.
Plus I find myself more around humans and wanting to be with furries yet just not fitting in. Maybe because I lack the various sterotypes that go with either A. Being Social/Sexual/Etc. or B. Being an Artist/Creator/Etc. so there just leaves plain little furry loving consumer me.
I do however find myself sinking back into my japanese loving traits. I'm still all shy as heck and giddy towards them as ever and doubt that will ever change.
I dunno maybe this whole maturing thing is changing my or whatever, or maybe it's the lack of furry friends, being screwed over by artists, who knows. =_=;
Either way, I didn't wanna go this route but I wonder if there's anything I haven't thought of that I could do.
(Granted I know no one's gonna comment so it's a retorical question.)
I think I'm becoming an SL only furry. =_= It's kinda sad and I dunno how to feel about it but I find it becoming more and more true.
My latest commissions which I still am owed about 1 from one artist, 3 from another, and 2 from another one which have taken months now with no work (kinda urks me but meh I've learned my lesson now). Kinda drills into it me not wanting art cause I'm mildly feeling a bit screwed over.
Also furry cons just aren't appealing, I feel like I lack the connection or social butterflyness that many have and the excess money and time it takes to even do it all.
I am happy and do not EVER regret having my fursuit, I don't need to go to a con to don it or feel sad because I'm not going to a con and such means I have or don't have to wear it.
Plus I find myself more around humans and wanting to be with furries yet just not fitting in. Maybe because I lack the various sterotypes that go with either A. Being Social/Sexual/Etc. or B. Being an Artist/Creator/Etc. so there just leaves plain little furry loving consumer me.
I do however find myself sinking back into my japanese loving traits. I'm still all shy as heck and giddy towards them as ever and doubt that will ever change.
I dunno maybe this whole maturing thing is changing my or whatever, or maybe it's the lack of furry friends, being screwed over by artists, who knows. =_=;
Either way, I didn't wanna go this route but I wonder if there's anything I haven't thought of that I could do.
(Granted I know no one's gonna comment so it's a retorical question.)
But then again, I've always been more about liking the art than the socializing, too. And I have other interests outside of the furry fandom. I think that's why I love Comic-Con so much...it's like a temporary mega-mall of geek fandoms all in one place. <XD
If you like furries (and you do), then it's you who gets to decide how you express that. :)
Hope yer doing good. ^^
I'm doing okay. Living in Norwich now, working at the Mohegan sun, etc.
I know what you mean with the socializing thing. I tend to be really shy at cons and stuff. Everyone talks about fun stuff at the zoo at Anthrocon, but all the times I've gone in there, I just kinda sit in the corner and read or draw :-/ But, this past year, I just happened to run into someone I knew irl, and suddenly everything was a billion times more fun. You don't have to be overly social to have fun at a con. Sometimes one or two friends is enough :)
But remember, even if you never interacted with the fandom in any way, you can still be a furry. Like, I consider myself a CLAMP fangirl, but I won't touch that fandom with a ten foot pole (any they say furries breed drama >>).
So ah... to bring the disjointed rambling to a conclusion. Your identity depends on no one else but yourself.
I hope even one bit of this makes sense ._.