Hello everyone.

So...I guess I have a lot of thoughts to get out now, so...fair warning, this might be a long one. Don't feel obligated to read it all. I just want to get stuff out of my system,.

Burnout
In short: I think I'm burnt out.

Art has not been fun for me for a while, and I'm struggling to keep going. I don't like my art, I'm frustrated with nearly everything I try to do and I just...this just isn't fun for me now.
So...I'm at a loss as to what to do.

I did finally upload the small project I did back in July. That is the newest stuff that I have that I feel comfortable with share at the moment.

I don't know how long this may last. I'm...trying to figure this out, so...yeah.

I am sorry.


Dragoneer and FurAffinity

I never really knew Dragoneer. And, I have to admit that I wasn't his "biggest fan", but I also didn't hold anything against him. I've heard both good and bad things about him, he's done some stuff I wasn't thrilled with, but nothing that would make me think ill towards him.
The stuff that happened hits kinda close to home though, since a member of my family did go through something similar, and I mean...I'm just as pissed with out so called health care system as the next person, so...yeah.

I think a thing that does bug me is the fact that I've seen so many journals from people who are immediately going "Hey, you can find me in these other locations", which just feels like everyone is jumping ship already. We don't know what the future is going to hold, but I really don't think FA is going to collapse overnight, so it just feels...I dunno...premature and almost disrespectful. Dragoneer from what I understand did do a lot, and his departure doesn't mean this place is going to immediately collapse.

I guess what I'm saying is that, for me at least, I'm gonna ride it out. I already plug my other locations at the top, so if you want to look for me elsewhere, there you go.

It is still sad to hear that he has passed away, and I've just...I've been through enough with death as it is, so...it's...sad.


The Hacking

So...that was a thing...and I'm just gonna be honest. To this MFer of a hacker, I have no sympathy for them whatsoever. I normally don't like stuff like doxxing and such, but...for a little piss-ant t do this just after Dragoneer's passing, just...what kind of low-life scumbag do you have to be? Probably thought they would win some internet points, and instead lost more than they ever imagined. Good.

Of course, people once again jumped the gun on what was going to happen, everyone leaving FA or crying out about data breeches and such, which FA staff said were still safe.
I mean...changing passwords and such is always good regardless, but...just the reactions I saw left a sour taste in my mouth.

But...yeah. This is pretty much in the hands of other authorities now, but...yeah. I have no sympathy for the scumbag.


Mental State

In short: it's bad. My mental state is really not good. I have no motivation, I have no drive. Nothing I do feels good or right to me. I'm trying to take it easy, but I feel like I'm spinning my wheels. It's agony.

There is a lot I could say here, but I don't want to dump it all here, but...yeah. No motivation, feeling pretty isolated, forgotten, neglected and/or used. It sucks.

I'm trying though. I am honestly trying. I just don't know where this is going to lead. I'm terrified of the idea that it might take me years to recover from this. I don't want that, but...I don't know what to do.

I know what I should do, but sadly that's not really possible for me. So yeah...just...trying.



For those that are still here, you have my thanks. Thank you for continuing your support and interest in my goofy art, and for your patience throughout all of this.

Take care and stay safe.






Update: 8-31-2024 - Added four new pictures to the gallery.