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a year ago
So against all odds, I ended up getting my Twitter account restored and relatively quickly too.
But that was enough of a scare to finally get me back posting on bluesky and maybe some on mastodon.
Bluesky - https://bsky.app/profile/erakir.bsky.social
Mastodon - https://transfur.social/@erakir
It's put some things in perspective. Not to go into too much detail, but I knew ahead of time that I crutched on Twitter to fill my days and give me things/people to engage with. I didn't fully grasp how badly reliant on it I've become, to the point of miserable despair worrying about never being able to access and share things there. Friends in person can confirm how much of a nervous wreck I become - if you have played FFXIV Endwalker, it's not too different from cowering NPCs before the despair takes them.
While I want to be more active on other sites like bluesky and here, I'm going to try and curb myself back from constantly checking my social media feeds. I also realized part of those constant checks is me trying to make sure nothing has gone wrong, I haven't suddenly been banned or lost access or what have you (not just for Twitter, in general on lots of sites it's grown into an almost constant paranoia. Ever since I lost PayPal, to be honest). Just a constant fear of losing pillars of my daily life.
It's been unhealthy on my productivity and creative endeavors. So, try to curb them back I will, while diversifying some postings. Might help me get back to writing, too. And hell, my last journal here was.... 8 years ago before the Twitter stuff? That's nuts. I should be more active here.
Anyway I'm just sort of rambling before I sleep. Thanks to everyone who reached out a few days ago, I was in a very bad place mentally and am just now really recovering. Ultimately I know I have friends here all around, and that helps my mind a bunch. Thank you!
But that was enough of a scare to finally get me back posting on bluesky and maybe some on mastodon.
Bluesky - https://bsky.app/profile/erakir.bsky.social
Mastodon - https://transfur.social/@erakir
It's put some things in perspective. Not to go into too much detail, but I knew ahead of time that I crutched on Twitter to fill my days and give me things/people to engage with. I didn't fully grasp how badly reliant on it I've become, to the point of miserable despair worrying about never being able to access and share things there. Friends in person can confirm how much of a nervous wreck I become - if you have played FFXIV Endwalker, it's not too different from cowering NPCs before the despair takes them.
While I want to be more active on other sites like bluesky and here, I'm going to try and curb myself back from constantly checking my social media feeds. I also realized part of those constant checks is me trying to make sure nothing has gone wrong, I haven't suddenly been banned or lost access or what have you (not just for Twitter, in general on lots of sites it's grown into an almost constant paranoia. Ever since I lost PayPal, to be honest). Just a constant fear of losing pillars of my daily life.
It's been unhealthy on my productivity and creative endeavors. So, try to curb them back I will, while diversifying some postings. Might help me get back to writing, too. And hell, my last journal here was.... 8 years ago before the Twitter stuff? That's nuts. I should be more active here.
Anyway I'm just sort of rambling before I sleep. Thanks to everyone who reached out a few days ago, I was in a very bad place mentally and am just now really recovering. Ultimately I know I have friends here all around, and that helps my mind a bunch. Thank you!
Try and find some other places to keep in touch and make those pillars of your life out of things that bolster you. Something productive if you can.
Plenty of baskets to put eggs in. Don't feel limited on that front!