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a year ago
Thinking deleting this account in full, recently someone who said they were my friend stabbed me in the back.
It's really hurt me after this person told me we were good frinds. Recently they abbandoned the account they had on here and anothers around the net.
I bought a lot of art off this person it turns out evything they told me was lies, I hate lies I've been hurt by them a lot. I supported them when no one else was buying stuff off them.
All of this on top of a RL issue as well has really set my depression off, everything they told me was lies, the name they told me from where they were living.
My like of writing has taken a maror hit and all I want to do is crawl into a corner and cry. Hell shhe even said she wasn't lying to me and never would.
I guess that was a lie to, when she just vanished from Discord I thought something serious had happened as she said she lived in Russia.
It's really hurt me after this person told me we were good frinds. Recently they abbandoned the account they had on here and anothers around the net.
I bought a lot of art off this person it turns out evything they told me was lies, I hate lies I've been hurt by them a lot. I supported them when no one else was buying stuff off them.
All of this on top of a RL issue as well has really set my depression off, everything they told me was lies, the name they told me from where they were living.
My like of writing has taken a maror hit and all I want to do is crawl into a corner and cry. Hell shhe even said she wasn't lying to me and never would.
I guess that was a lie to, when she just vanished from Discord I thought something serious had happened as she said she lived in Russia.
Remember, if you're meant to be connected to someone for the common good, then those are the friendships you should save. The people who are out to hurt you or deceive you, are no longer worth your time or thoughts.
We hope you'll stay. *^^*
Unfortunately, the truth of our lives on this world is that many people will eventually betray you, because people are fallable and make mistakes, and because narcissists and functional psychopaths/sociopaths see weakness in trusting and good-natured people and target them. I myself have had artists I thought were friends who suddenly decided to never work with me again and stop talking to me. I've also had artists approach me, begging for handouts for art that isn't worth the price, artists disappearing and never finishing the job, etc.
The one thing you don't ever want to do is surrender to your depressive thoughts, to give up your passions and walk away from your work and your accounts, because A) other people didn't and cannot take that away from you, only you can take that away from yourself, and B) if you change your mind and realize it's too late, coming back will be a challenge and you may not repair all of those broken connections.
My recommendation would be to simply take a short break. Give yourself a week off the internet altogether and focus on your IRL problems, then reevaluate your thoughts and feelings. Maybe give yourself extra time away from FA, but don't just walk away altogether, not until you're 1,000% sure it's what you want to do.
Sending you lots of good thoughts.
Regardless, you will always be my friend and I will always support you.
My recommendation is to take a small break from FA and discord because you can't let one person ruin it for you. You are a super funny, nice, and good friend.
You are always more than welcome to message me at anytime. You know where to contact me. I will never betray you or ignore you. *Sending you a lot of hugs and cakes*
I'd hate to see you go, but will support you no matter what you feel is right. I just hope things improve sooner rather than later for you.
Whatever you decide, we're still here for you.
-- Am I suggesting that? No! Just the opposite, the goods ALWAYS outnumber the bads when you keep yourself in a positive enough place to see them. I know with depression that sometimes that just isn't the easiest thing to do. I know more often than not, it seems like an impossible task; the depression itself being a snowbound volcano that everyone around you keeps telling you to "get over it"! --- "Yeah assh0l3, don't you think I would IF I could!"
Life isn't always simple. But sometimes it helps to peel it down to the absolute lowest reality to make sense of something complex...
There are two voices telling your right now to delete and leave: the one that hurt you, and your own of doubt.
There are 10 voices right now telling you they care, and PLEADING with you to stay. Listen to the many supporting you. Take some time for yourself. Take some time for your writings and your life. Cry upon however many shoulders you might need....they're available. But don't turn your back on them.
Just my two cents, we're not close...heck I border more on the realm of random stranger rather than a friend or something. But I'm still here if you ask me to be. Please stay, for the friends you have and the ones you are still to make...block the hurt and salve the wounds with time and love.