First of all, thank you everyone for your comments and encouraging words on the last journal. I cannot reply to each one individually, but I've read them all a couple times, and I wanna thank you for taking the time out of your day to help me out emotionally. Things have gotten, I wanna say, moderately better, but in terms of professional help I'm still on my own for now, since apparently psychiatrists tend to have very long waiting lists. Unfortunately it's clear that some things need to change now and not later, and despite wanting to draw again, I need to change my mindset and approach a bit first. I wanna work and create, but also need to let that take a backseat to mental and physical health.
Before all of this absolute bull happened, I had a workout routine, a semi-strict dietary plan and was also nearing my preferred weight. Needless to say that's all out of the window currently since I've been stress eating a lot, and being sick for a month has reset a lot of workout progress, too. Which is one of the things I hope a professional can teach me, how to deal with stressful situations in a more healthy manner. For now I just want to slowly better my physical state again, which will also affect the mental state eventually. I know it does, I've been in these positive feedback loops before, I just need to learn how to not fall out of them.

So, tl; dr I guess. I'll be drawing again, but health is now more of a priority and I'll dedicate more time towards becoming properly healthy.

Thanks everyone who stayed on my patreon during that entire quiet month, and thanks everyone for still looking forward to new pics over here after those quiet two months.
Since nothing of this involved any kind of burnout, I have hopes that I'll be posting pics regularily again soon, but yeah, still gonna take it somewhat slow for now.

Thanks for reading~