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my sexual assault experience back in 2013..
a year ago
I've been informed that I should not have his name on my journal but please feel free to refer to my FurFright 2013 journal or DM for info. I have replaced a name with HE or Him to keep it from getting taken down
I have been R'd more than once in my life and I have held onto this trauma for a very long time, and it has come up in therapy time and time again.. I have cried over this so many times in my life - back in 2013 I was sexually assaulted on the way back from FurFright "which would come to be known as Furpocalypse the following year".
The first time I had met HIM was during the last day of the convention while taking some pictures with some local furs Rain and Leo, if I recall he helped to take some photos for me and I headed back to my hotel I was at with my friends.
The following day I received a text informing me that my train I had booked was cancelled. I headed into the hotel bar and decided to give my mom a call in the hopes she could help me out "since I had already spent all the money all the money in my bank during the convention. Before making the call HE was there at the hotel bar and had recognized me and we chatted for a little bit he wanted me taste his beer and one thing I will never forget about him was what he had said after I tasted his beer "that tastes weird right? like it tastes like a dogs dick. It taste exactly like a dogs dick, right?!?" I thought it was really odd but I had priorities so I shrugged it off and gave my mom a call. Apparently all trains that week were cancelled because of a train accident and I tried asking if maybe I could get a plane back, HE overhead me and spoke up and said "I can give him a ride back" he then started repeatedly offering me a ride back and overhearing that my mom asked to talk to him. He told her he would drive me back to Maryland where I could catch a train back from there. He said all the right things to coerse her and when handed back the phone I was told to go with him. I begged her to get me a plane back and that I didn't really know the guy and she just told me I could either go home or stay where I was..
So I believe it was on Sunday I went home with HIM and his two friends, one of them drew a sketch in my sketchbook I saw some of my friends at the con and hugged them goodbye and then me and HIM got in the back. HE mentioned horses a lot and showed me some of his artwork he had from Redrukser with him and a horse and he even commented how much he wants to own a horse and that he has a few friends that own horses "I was really really uncomfortable already". He had talked about how he'd seen so much art of my character "at the time I did have a lot of sexual art of my character and it gave so many people ideas of things I wouldn't be okay with doing, especially strangers to me.
It was a long trip to Maryland we were passing through New York at night time I remember all the lights of the city HE was being extremely flirting towards me and I told him how I wasn't really comfortable doing anything with someone I haven't known long.. at some point while we passed through the bright lights of NY he undid his pants.. I mentioned I didn't feel well and didn't want to do anything and he followed by forcing me to perform oral on him.. he even made me swallow.......... I felt so violated like I was nothing but garbage, I felt used in every way and I hated it so much
Once we arrived back at his place we all headed in he wanted me to share a bed with him and asked if I was okay with having sex and I told him that I wasn't comfortable with doing so "I had a good excuse but I was not comfortable is the biggest reason I declined" I told him how one of my friends may have had an exposure and I was still waiting for my primary care doctor to call me back with my test results. He then offered for us to use a condom and I told him I would rather not take the risk. HE GOT PISSED.. Not only did he get pissed but he kicked all of us out of his apartment and left us in the hallway, his one friend had to call him and talk to him on the phone and then went in to talk with him. He eventually opened the door and let us back in.. HE went to his room, I believe the friend who talked with him went to stay in his room and the other friend headed home. I spent the entire night crying on the couch. I only slept a few hours before waking and just staring out the bay window in front of the couch for hours wondering why any of this had to happen and eventually HIM and his friend woke up and they were acting all nice and ordered me Jimmy Johns and then they drove me to the train station.. and then I headed home on a train from Maryland..
I held onto this for such a long time, I thought maybe with time I would forget it but honestly.. It's never went away and not talking about it never fixed anything
I have been R'd more than once in my life and I have held onto this trauma for a very long time, and it has come up in therapy time and time again.. I have cried over this so many times in my life - back in 2013 I was sexually assaulted on the way back from FurFright "which would come to be known as Furpocalypse the following year".
The first time I had met HIM was during the last day of the convention while taking some pictures with some local furs Rain and Leo, if I recall he helped to take some photos for me and I headed back to my hotel I was at with my friends.
The following day I received a text informing me that my train I had booked was cancelled. I headed into the hotel bar and decided to give my mom a call in the hopes she could help me out "since I had already spent all the money all the money in my bank during the convention. Before making the call HE was there at the hotel bar and had recognized me and we chatted for a little bit he wanted me taste his beer and one thing I will never forget about him was what he had said after I tasted his beer "that tastes weird right? like it tastes like a dogs dick. It taste exactly like a dogs dick, right?!?" I thought it was really odd but I had priorities so I shrugged it off and gave my mom a call. Apparently all trains that week were cancelled because of a train accident and I tried asking if maybe I could get a plane back, HE overhead me and spoke up and said "I can give him a ride back" he then started repeatedly offering me a ride back and overhearing that my mom asked to talk to him. He told her he would drive me back to Maryland where I could catch a train back from there. He said all the right things to coerse her and when handed back the phone I was told to go with him. I begged her to get me a plane back and that I didn't really know the guy and she just told me I could either go home or stay where I was..
So I believe it was on Sunday I went home with HIM and his two friends, one of them drew a sketch in my sketchbook I saw some of my friends at the con and hugged them goodbye and then me and HIM got in the back. HE mentioned horses a lot and showed me some of his artwork he had from Redrukser with him and a horse and he even commented how much he wants to own a horse and that he has a few friends that own horses "I was really really uncomfortable already". He had talked about how he'd seen so much art of my character "at the time I did have a lot of sexual art of my character and it gave so many people ideas of things I wouldn't be okay with doing, especially strangers to me.
It was a long trip to Maryland we were passing through New York at night time I remember all the lights of the city HE was being extremely flirting towards me and I told him how I wasn't really comfortable doing anything with someone I haven't known long.. at some point while we passed through the bright lights of NY he undid his pants.. I mentioned I didn't feel well and didn't want to do anything and he followed by forcing me to perform oral on him.. he even made me swallow.......... I felt so violated like I was nothing but garbage, I felt used in every way and I hated it so much
Once we arrived back at his place we all headed in he wanted me to share a bed with him and asked if I was okay with having sex and I told him that I wasn't comfortable with doing so "I had a good excuse but I was not comfortable is the biggest reason I declined" I told him how one of my friends may have had an exposure and I was still waiting for my primary care doctor to call me back with my test results. He then offered for us to use a condom and I told him I would rather not take the risk. HE GOT PISSED.. Not only did he get pissed but he kicked all of us out of his apartment and left us in the hallway, his one friend had to call him and talk to him on the phone and then went in to talk with him. He eventually opened the door and let us back in.. HE went to his room, I believe the friend who talked with him went to stay in his room and the other friend headed home. I spent the entire night crying on the couch. I only slept a few hours before waking and just staring out the bay window in front of the couch for hours wondering why any of this had to happen and eventually HIM and his friend woke up and they were acting all nice and ordered me Jimmy Johns and then they drove me to the train station.. and then I headed home on a train from Maryland..
I held onto this for such a long time, I thought maybe with time I would forget it but honestly.. It's never went away and not talking about it never fixed anything
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