I don't want to start an new entry for this so I'll just log it here. honestly I am not even sure if I want people to read this but under several layer of anonymity it'll probably be okay. I am not looking for pities, just looking for somewhere to put down my thoughts.

I cried today, for the first time in years, for close to an hour. There was tear coming out of my eyes, stuffed sinuses, runny nose, but I couldn't naturally make the sound of crying or even a crying face. I wasn't intentionally trying to hide it either, I was alone laying on my bed and no one would've been able to see or hear if I did cry out loud. It's as if despite all the emotions I was feeling I physically could not express them properly, which isn't far from what I've known about myself.

I don't know how to feel about this. I'll keep drawing.