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Sad Update to tell you I need to close my patreon - and Datastream sub site indefinitely.
I can no longer continue, longtime patrons will know I've taken multiple hiatuses over the last while and honestly none of them worked. I've not rekindled my love for making art, if anything I'm taking emotional damage every time I manage to make any, every month I finish less and less art. I am feeling more and more unstable mentally because of this. To the point I've worried my loved ones and friends. Finishing anything is physically and mentally painful, honestly I cant keep going on like this.
I need to remove the guilt, the expectations and the weight off my shoulders and shut this down indefinitely.
Thank you for standing by and supporting me, a lot of you have been here since I opened shop in 2017. Thanks from the bottom of my heart for everything, I couldn't have lived my dream without you. It's just time it ended.
Don't know if ill be back, I don't want to promise anything or it'll only lead to more disappointment. If I do post anything it'll probably be on my discord server. Because this has been my job since 2017 im essentially quitting my only job. I'll probably sell OCs, make adopts, or take the odd small commission when or if im feeling up to it so i suppose if you're interested in the possibility stick around on the discord.
I have enoki customs to work on and i'll still do those, I'll just need some patience.
I know many of you have said they're happy to support for nothing in return but the guilt is still there monthly. Every goal not met, every month with no full art pack, weeks ticking by and I've not uploaded anything.. it's getting to me. The longer the sub platforms stay, the weight on my shoulders just doesnt leave. Instead, if I list anything for sale, a woodburning, a wild comm, an adopt.. please consider grabbing it instead. Or drop some coins in my ko-fi if you feel like it.
Thanks for everything, and I'm sorry to disappoint you all yet again. I hope I can find my passion again one day. I'd love to not be so all over the place the next time you see me.
I can no longer continue, longtime patrons will know I've taken multiple hiatuses over the last while and honestly none of them worked. I've not rekindled my love for making art, if anything I'm taking emotional damage every time I manage to make any, every month I finish less and less art. I am feeling more and more unstable mentally because of this. To the point I've worried my loved ones and friends. Finishing anything is physically and mentally painful, honestly I cant keep going on like this.
I need to remove the guilt, the expectations and the weight off my shoulders and shut this down indefinitely.
Thank you for standing by and supporting me, a lot of you have been here since I opened shop in 2017. Thanks from the bottom of my heart for everything, I couldn't have lived my dream without you. It's just time it ended.
Don't know if ill be back, I don't want to promise anything or it'll only lead to more disappointment. If I do post anything it'll probably be on my discord server. Because this has been my job since 2017 im essentially quitting my only job. I'll probably sell OCs, make adopts, or take the odd small commission when or if im feeling up to it so i suppose if you're interested in the possibility stick around on the discord.
I have enoki customs to work on and i'll still do those, I'll just need some patience.
I know many of you have said they're happy to support for nothing in return but the guilt is still there monthly. Every goal not met, every month with no full art pack, weeks ticking by and I've not uploaded anything.. it's getting to me. The longer the sub platforms stay, the weight on my shoulders just doesnt leave. Instead, if I list anything for sale, a woodburning, a wild comm, an adopt.. please consider grabbing it instead. Or drop some coins in my ko-fi if you feel like it.
Thanks for everything, and I'm sorry to disappoint you all yet again. I hope I can find my passion again one day. I'd love to not be so all over the place the next time you see me.
>>>>>> Ko-fi <<<<<
If you like my work, and wanna help me make more, consider buying me a coffee <3 
I hope that you can find peace in your hobby, and that it starts being fun again. ;o; I know how hard doing it for a job can hurt your love of it.
No matter what, there's tons of people by your side that understand that you're only human, and we aren't 'disappointed'. If anything, some people just worry about you, the person, not the 'artist'.
I'm pretty bad about commenting on things, but I just wanted to say you've been one of my biggest inspirations with human/humanoid art, and a lot of your works take up the bulk of my inspiration folder.
I hope one day you can see as much fun and beauty in your art as people like me do. And I hope you can heal ;v; <3 Stay tough.
Come back when you are ready, I know I'll be around, and I hope you will feel better too! Much hugs from this Dæmon.
There is nothing wrong with putting a passion of yours on hold until you feel the time is right. Be it years or decades in the future, just give yourself time. The last thing that you need to do is stress, worry and burden yourself with artwork. Being a full-time artist is a huge burden, given that you have deadlines to meet and quotas that need to be fulfilled!
But, again, Twilight, you need to focus on your own health before anything else. Let artwork take a backseat while you focus on yourself and improving! Artwork takes time and we all have plenty of time! For now, spend that time getting well and not focusing on art!
Hope you can find some peace soon!
~HD
Thank you for everything. If coming back is ever the right decision, we'll be waiting with open arms - and if it isn't, we were lucky and honored to have you as long as we did. ♥
I don't think anyone is genuinely upset or disappointed by your decisions - you are in charge of your own life, you can do anything you want. 😁✌️
P.S. I hope the stress and anxiety subsides and that you're able to enjoy other activities with friends and family. You're a wonderful person and deserve the best things in life. 😸
Take the time you need, do what you need to do, and we will all still be here whatever you decide!
I hope you don't choose to completely disappear but it's understandable if it's what you need to do.
I have my pieces from you framed and I absolutely treasure them! <3 I'm honored I got art from you.
its kinda limited so that i can look after it by myself with limited spoons but im happy people want to be around for me regardless
Good luck with taking the time to yourself and working on feeling better as much as you're able to. Sometimes you just have to step back and take that time to rest and recover.
Good luck and take care!