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To Commissioners: I'm Sorry
11 months ago
Too little too late at this point. You already have them in your hands and likely aren't too upset with me, but still. The "emergency commissions" have all wrapped up...a full four and a half months after they were supposed to be.
Ultimately, yes, the plan to finish them all in a June speed-run was a self-imposed goal. No deadline was set in stone for any of these. But is that really all I could accomplish in that amount of time? 20 damn commissions, some of which are barely finished and none of which look professional? Regardless, these commissions were organized with the expectation that they would get done quickly. I overpromised and underdelivered, once again, and I'm sorry.
It's forced me to confront some unpleasant realities about myself, my skill level and my work ethic. Sincerely hope that I'll do better in the future.
Ultimately, yes, the plan to finish them all in a June speed-run was a self-imposed goal. No deadline was set in stone for any of these. But is that really all I could accomplish in that amount of time? 20 damn commissions, some of which are barely finished and none of which look professional? Regardless, these commissions were organized with the expectation that they would get done quickly. I overpromised and underdelivered, once again, and I'm sorry.
It's forced me to confront some unpleasant realities about myself, my skill level and my work ethic. Sincerely hope that I'll do better in the future.
The honest truth is, the longer you go without achieving your goals or making progress, the less motivation you have to try. I sense that art will never get me anywhere, so it becomes a big drag. Still, I am very glad that you're happy. Thanks for the pep talk.
So I admire your tenacity, and the fact you still do some pretty impeccable work, even if it takes a bit. I know the struggles stares at my backlog of images that need stories and cringes, but one can only look at possible options and go forward from there.
Is the process just slow for you? (at least with that being how you feel it is?). Or do you have like, difficulties starting/tend to sit on a piece for a while without working on it? I ask because if it's the second option, there might be underlying things that are causing it (As is the case with me and many others), verses it being ENTIRELy on you.