To put it bluntly, I've been lacking any kind of motivation to draw recently, and if I have to be honest, I think it's going to be a while before it returns at this point. I've talked about this topic fairly often with people that know me on Discord, but I feel like I should mention it here as well.

The problem is, I'm not an obscure artist anymore. I haven't been for around 2 years, ever since I got 100 watchers on here. And while I will always be grateful for everyone that has done so, I need to admit that it ends up putting a lot of internalized pressure on myself. There's a lot more "I should be drawing to keep the masses happy" than "I want to draw a thing for fun and perhaps people will like it" now.

I never wanted fame, or popularity, when I started drawing. I never thought I'd do more than a couple pictures, and that I'd only end up with a handful of watchers and a couple people who really enjoyed my stuff. I'm... long past that, and I've never quite figured out how to process it internally.

I don't know how long it'll be before I start drawing again. I don't want to mention any kind of timeframe, as yet again that will just add pressure. And yet, I feel the need to apologise in advance, even though most people will probably support this. I will say, that I don't want to stop drawing altogether. I just need time to myself, I think.