Motivation
12 months ago
My motivation has been very rough the past week. I can't really get anything done, and I'm feeling very deflated.
Feeling especially like I'm trespassing on everyone's existence right now. Like I don't belong anywhere I am or spend my time. Maybe as if I'm a spy in enemy territory, hoping not to lose my cover.
Feeling especially like I'm trespassing on everyone's existence right now. Like I don't belong anywhere I am or spend my time. Maybe as if I'm a spy in enemy territory, hoping not to lose my cover.
FA+

i STRONGLY suggest therapy with thoughts like that
I'll try to elaborate more later, but for now, this world is trying to tell me that I'm not supposed to be here.
with less reason to respect the way the world is, isn't that periodically a greater and greater license to be a more unhinged version of yourself? just skip to the end and be 100% you.
for instance: i've been struggling with gender dysphoria for a long while now. i had so many reasons in my head not too. literally hiding myself because it's too inconvenient or silly or whatever- just talking myself down and for no good fucking reason! i've decided to finally transition.
ironically, having bigger balls is what helped me. why put stock in a world that hates us?
I remember when I finally got the courage to go by Lavender as opposed to my given name. It allowed me to admit to my nonbinary nature.
And again, you are incredible.