Hi all furballs!

As you probably noticed, it was quite a looong time I have been uploading new drawings very rarely, if at all ^^'

Unfortunately, the pandemic, and not only all the not-always-wise restrictions and requirements that came with it but the overall pessimistic atmosphere during these years, has hit me very hard. It finally ended - soon after the nearby war started, which brought new fears and worries. But the feeling of isolation and lack of sense amd purpose remained ^^'

It was a very depressive period in my life, that started even a bit earlier but went worse the last couple of years.
I was also struggling with health-related anxiety, that was started by a couple of wrong diagnoses and baseless warnings made by stupid doctors a few times during these years (everything turned out to be OK so don't worry ^^). But I finally mostly overcame it somehow, step by step, around last year :3
I also mostly got rid of the... depressive mood (not sure if I should call it legit "depression"), though it still comes back at me sometimes ^^''''

And after this long hard time, I want to finally come back to drawing and stuff.

TBH, I actually planned to make this comeback last year ^^''
The Halloween YCH I made was planned by me to be the starting point of this comeback, and I wanted to draw a lot of new stuff in 2024. But then...
in January, my grandma went to hospital with serious gallbladder issues.
In February, one close fur friend had an important medical exam and I worried about them REALLY much (they were OK tho, thankfully).
In March and May, I had 2 funerals in my family, one of them I couldn't attend :/ Which ruined my mood for a long time.
In June, my grandma finally had her gallbladder problem fixed, but my aunt and uncle (who helped me a lot and whom I love), had serious exams too. One of them related to a lung cancer uncle had a couple of years ago and they initially thought it returned :/
I was also attacked by a dog (no bites thankfully) and even more aggressively by its owner, and ended a long good friendship with one fur over this topic. :(

...and because of all of this, I just had no mood nor energy for drawing all these months, almost all the time :/ July was calmer and happier, but I was so exhausted that I had no energy for anything else than sitting and watching EURO2024 matches on TV drinking beer, or lying on my bed listening to music. Trying to relax.

And after I took some rest and planned to draw and upload something in August, I got that news about Babyfur and Age Regression artists getting banned on FA. So I was not sure if I shouldn't boycott FA and move to InkBunny - but as I didn't notice any removed arts in my own gallery, I decided to wait a bit and figure out if it was a serious decisiom by admins, or some "rogue admin"/"report troll" issue. I uploaded a babyfur YCH and no bans happened so for a while I've put that decision on hold (though I still believe 100% it happened to other artists and I think it was extremely wrong).

And then, this October I looked back at the same time but a year earlier, and I got incredibly sad when I realized that of all my drawing plans for this year, I completed almost nothing :(

I planned a Dragon Year art for the Chinese New Year, I planned some support art for Palestine, I planned some anniversary fanarts about Lion King or Pulp Fiction or Woodstock 69. I know I still can draw all of this, but it won't be as relevant as it would be this year :/
I planned a lot of new Nordic-themed, sexy vixen-themed, or babyfur-themed arts because I knew you liked them - and some brand new stuff. And I failed, just because I was so incredibly TIRED. :/

I feel I failed and disappointed not only myself but most importantly YOU, my followers who like my art. :( And I apologize for that. I shouldn't let all these events - though they're sad - hit me so hard that I couldn't focus on drawing at all. My hiatus was already long enough a year ago, and after giving you hope by these YCHs I shouldn't abandon you THAT much for the entire next year just because of my personal problems. I owe you more as an artist and I should do better. I'm sorry.

I'm ready to at least try to move on, though. I want to make up for all that lost time.

I know there was quite a handful (pawful?) of you furs who commissioned me during these few years, and I have never done the commissions sadly ^^' I still feel bad about it.
Remind me please of your commissions here, just by writing a comment - you can also send me a note if you prefer. Because sometimes you commissioned me a long time ago, you'll most likely need to remind me what you wanted me to draw for you - all the action, expressions, scenery, clothing etc. ^^' And send me the reference arts for characters you want me to draw.

You won't need to pay me for the commissions again if you don't want - time passed, everyone's financial situation might change, and above all I just failed you by not drawing it in time.
If you WANT to send me $$$ - I won't try to stop you, you know my PayPal. But it's YOUR decision :3 I just want to draw what you wanted me to draw, because I feel bad for delaying it for so long.

I hope that I can overcome the sadness and that this time, my comeback will be a little more successful. I hope I will be able to finally finish all the old commissions, and to properly do the new ones too. And to give you joy with some new stuff as well.

And I apologize for failing you, my furry friends and followers, one more time. I'm sorry.

And... that's all I wanted to say I think. ^^' Sorries for the wall of text. Let's hope everything will start to get better soon, just like it was a year ago. ^^''

*hugs you all*

Take care, fuzzies. :3