I need to get this out of my system, cause this trouble has gone on for long enough!

I am seriously getting tired of how people has been treating me lately! It's the same it has been over and over for the past couple of years and still keeps going. I'm dealing with a lot of people who keeps trying to take advantages of me, using me and so, treating me like i'm the awful one in all this, threating me and whatsoever... I'm trying to use my heart and kindess, trying to be a friend and this is really how you wish to treat me? I hate to be mean to others, but i hate to go with this awful feeling all the time too.

This experience has made me even more scared to be open to new people, trying to get friends and now i feel i can't do that anymore due to how much this has been put on me. Heck i'm even more scared to keep in contacts with those i already know, making me feel all useless and alone all the time. I'm scared all the time that they would treat me the same way as others has and it has been a lot to deal with. I would love to reach out to anyone, i really do, but my mind keeps saying no all the time! I'm always open to talk with if anyone wanna give me a chance, that i haven't closed out, but it hasn't been any easy for me to talk with others!

So please, i beg you, don't try and use me like i'm a nobody... I have feelings too and i want to be treated friendly. I don't want to be a doormat anymore

Thanks for listening