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family is Mentally draining.
a year ago
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Why cant family be nice? why do i have to have the shit family that treats you like shit because they know you have nowhere to go?
while i do have stuff to help move, i have no way of even leaving, no transport, no job for passive income, and most of my money has to go towards stuff i need or towards subtle refunds on way too overdue work, jobs havent been picking up from my applications and its just, UGH
I cant work well under this stress, and i think they know this too, even tho they believe im "lazy" for doing online work and consider it "playing"
its just, stressing, ive shown i make money from this yet they continue to harass me, scream at me, and compare me to shit im not
its just, fucking stressing
i want out of this place, but how
while i do have stuff to help move, i have no way of even leaving, no transport, no job for passive income, and most of my money has to go towards stuff i need or towards subtle refunds on way too overdue work, jobs havent been picking up from my applications and its just, UGH
I cant work well under this stress, and i think they know this too, even tho they believe im "lazy" for doing online work and consider it "playing"
its just, stressing, ive shown i make money from this yet they continue to harass me, scream at me, and compare me to shit im not
its just, fucking stressing
i want out of this place, but how
why cant i have a NORMAL family that dosent scream at me for stupid bs and isnt made up of mostly narcists with severe mental issues and trashes the place just to pawn it off onto me to clean, WHY CANT I HAVE A NORMAL LIFE.
WHY CANT I HAVE PEACE. THIS FUCKING STRESS AND SHIT HAS ACTUALLY FUCKING RUINED ME AS A PERSON.
always making me look like a fucking downer because negativity is all i asorbed from them and i cant fucking tell when im being negative, i actually cant fucking focus right anymore on anything, fucking random people are more of a role model than anyone ive actually met, NOTHING I DO FEELS GOOD ENOUGH, criticized for EVERYTHING I DO, awkward as hell when actually talking to people because im always ignored or considered a liar if what im saying isnt to their thoughts of the situations because of my mothers own stupid choices in life, living in fucking filth because of my sibling's lack of hygenie and guess who has to clean it all dispite being anti-social by the familys doing? ME!!
im just fed up with all of this, idfk what to do