i’ve delayed opening commissions for way longer than i should because i really wanted to get more late work done first, but my rent is actually late as hell and i’ll be in trouble if i don’t get it covered like, NOW. so as much as i’d prefer not to open, i’m opening now and will take commissions until my rent is covered and i can get groceries… to everyone waiting, i am presently, as in, right now, still working on stuff and sending it out so believe me i’m workin on updating you.
if you want some art or know someone who wants art, hmu either here or on discord. additionally, if you or anyone you know wants to do something themed around tftg, hmu and i will knock 15% off of your total. i miss tftg.

my prices, as usual: https://batruse.straw.page

SLOTS:
1. jeremyyagoof
2. ferox
3. ferox
4. flaminglizard006
5. albino the infernape
6. redsnake19
7. rubberrabbit
8. gifty
9.



anyways,

some of you might have noticed that i’ve been pretty slow with commissions lately, though i’d say that i’ve never been very fast (as much as i’d like to be one of those guys with that sort of ability). i try really hard to keep my mental state private… i saw a guy make fun of commission artists for having shit mental health once and never recovered.
i feel like i’ve gotten to the point, though, that there’s really no NOT talking about it. it’s so prevalent and taken up so much of my life and sucked up so much of my personhood that i think it’s obvious to everyone around me and i suspect some of you.
i’m burnt. OUT. i’ve been doing this for roughly 6 years now, nonstop, at a pace that was never manageable for me and i never should have allowed. but my prices were always too low for my drawing speed—also too low, which meant drawing commissions every single day, all weekends, no such thing as a birthday or holiday. and on top of that, i only got slower.
i thought that this was just the grind though, that it was supposed to be hard and that was just normal, but it’s something that has gotten worse over time and has reached a point that it just keeps me in bed and dysfunctional. i am miserable.
i’ve been drawing since i was a toddler. anyone who has ever known me knows me for the way that i’d just doodle constantly. it’s frankly terrifying to me that i’ve hit this point that drawing has become actually impossibly difficult.
that being said, i know that i love drawing. i want to continue. but i need to take a break soon, or at least significantly change something, or i don’t know if i can keep going.
i’ve been cooking a plan over the past month or so, though. i want to clean up my queue, finish up my late work and then put down enough money to just stop for a month. i’d like to try drawing things for myself in that time or maybe doing some style experimentation… stuff that i never get to do anymore. i can’t do that until i finish cleaning things up though. i wouldn’t be able to rest. but that’s my plan.
i wanted to say sorry to anyone who’s been forced to deal with how long you have to wait for me, and also a thank you to those same people and everyone else. thanks for putting up with me. that’s all i really had to say. i’ll try to post some sort of update when i’m closer to figuring out when i can take a break. hopefully soon; i’m trying very hard to clean up my work.

thank you for reading