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End of year + My lack of activity
9 months ago
Hello everyone! Crazy how fast this year went by, to be honest. A lot sure has happened, huh? I hope all my watchers and page visitors have a wonderful holiday season as we come to the end of 2024! ^^ I know the holidays can be pretty rough for some people, so I hope you're all doing well. I've personally had a decent time this holiday season, especially since I can afford gifts this year for family and friends for once thanks to getting a new job.
On that note, I'd like to just kinda.. address my lack of activity. Since the beginning of this year, I've been working full-time (except for a couple months gap of unemployment) and it's kept me pretty busy. I'm admittedly too tired half the time to come home and draw anything, and even when I do have the time I'm just.. severely unmotivated.
Motivation has been something I've struggled with for most of my life when it comes to art. I compare myself to others too often and, as they say, envy is the thief of joy. I don't hate my art as much as I did a few years ago, but... I'm still not happy with it. I'm not sure if I ever will be. I know art takes practice and patience, but I never took enough time to practice things like anatomy, backgrounds, dynamic poses, etc. I know it's never too late to start, but.. again, I work so much now that my hobby is hard to do, much less enjoy. I've truly robbed myself of potential due to so much time wasted not focusing on my art and developing this skill. I know my art isn't terrible, but.,. it'll never be as good as I want it to be. I'll never be as good as my idols, and... maybe that's okay since art isn't my career. I still wish I was better though, at least for my standards...
I apologize for the mini vent here, but I just wanted to touch a little bit on why I don't post much, and it is because I don't draw much. Between working and my lack of motivation, I just... find it hard to be creative. I'm hoping I find the time and drive one day to be more active and push my art in the direction I'd love to see it go. In the meantime, I'm going to keep doing my best.
Thank you to everyone who has followed me this long and still keeps up with my art whenever I do happen to post. I appreciate the love since it helps motivate me to keep creating.
On that note, I'd like to just kinda.. address my lack of activity. Since the beginning of this year, I've been working full-time (except for a couple months gap of unemployment) and it's kept me pretty busy. I'm admittedly too tired half the time to come home and draw anything, and even when I do have the time I'm just.. severely unmotivated.
Motivation has been something I've struggled with for most of my life when it comes to art. I compare myself to others too often and, as they say, envy is the thief of joy. I don't hate my art as much as I did a few years ago, but... I'm still not happy with it. I'm not sure if I ever will be. I know art takes practice and patience, but I never took enough time to practice things like anatomy, backgrounds, dynamic poses, etc. I know it's never too late to start, but.. again, I work so much now that my hobby is hard to do, much less enjoy. I've truly robbed myself of potential due to so much time wasted not focusing on my art and developing this skill. I know my art isn't terrible, but.,. it'll never be as good as I want it to be. I'll never be as good as my idols, and... maybe that's okay since art isn't my career. I still wish I was better though, at least for my standards...
I apologize for the mini vent here, but I just wanted to touch a little bit on why I don't post much, and it is because I don't draw much. Between working and my lack of motivation, I just... find it hard to be creative. I'm hoping I find the time and drive one day to be more active and push my art in the direction I'd love to see it go. In the meantime, I'm going to keep doing my best.
Thank you to everyone who has followed me this long and still keeps up with my art whenever I do happen to post. I appreciate the love since it helps motivate me to keep creating.
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Wishing you all the best! Keep hanging in there.
