I've been wanting to type this journal entry for a while now, really. The truth is, I'm actually too afraid to write it out, because I don't want people to see me the wrong way... I've been dealing with depression for a while now, due to multiple world events and such, as well as highly personal events in my life that I'd rather not talk about.

I'm still recovering from the PTSD that involved my computer being hacked and such. Believe it or not, that's actually tame compared to what I later found out about what Twitter had turned into, due to a very unfortunate event that happened merely a week before my computer hack, and the aftermath of it. Yes, I agree that what happened in Gaza was indeed horrific, and I'd rather not describe the atrocities in full detail. I fully understand why everyone is angry... Unfortunately, it also made it difficult for me to browse Twitter as normal as before, especially because I typically like to browse Twitter in order to look for cute furry pics, but all I'm seeing were tweets and retweets pertaining to this horrific violation of human rights, by the very people I've been following. And then the muskrat decided that it'll be a great idea to hide everyone's Likes, which only further hampered my ability to search for more cute furry pics, because I tended to heavily rely on people's Likes section to look for said pics.

Anyway, if you know me, I'd rather not want to discuss about anything politics-related. See, that's why I'd rather not put watermelons in my display name: I'd rather want to keep my socials -- Twitter, Bluesky, etc. -- as far away from politics as much as possible. People are now being targeted for simply having watermelons in their display names, and I'd rather want to avoid that. I also understand how much everyone is upset with the recent US elections and such... Yes, it sucks, but I'm not an American, so there's nothing I can do about that. Again, I just want to keep my socials free from anything political, and only retweet about cute and interesting stuff that I enjoy, like Pokémon fanart.

As usual, I'll always keep telling myself that next year should hopefully be better. Maybe that won't happen -- maybe 2025 will only be just as bad, if not worse -- but I'd rather want to keep having positive thoughts, no matter what. And it's important to always have positive thoughts. Since I'm a Twitch streamer now, having negative thoughts will only be detrimental to my ability to stream and entertain my audience.

Anyway, here's my new year's resolution, too: post more pics, finish more commissions, upload more uplifting trance music tracks of mine, do more of my Twitch streams, etc.. As well as being that cute little fluffy critter that I've always been. Hope to see you again soon.