First off, Merry Christmas 🎁 I hope if you're reading this that you've had a good holiday.

Secondly, I've been through a lot over the last 6 months. Basically a cycle of heartbreak and hoping and going from one to the other depending on the day. In the end I tried the best I could but things didn't turn out the way I would have liked. For all the sacrifices we can make, you can't make someone stay if they don't want to. It would've been nice to do without all the lying and cheating though.

It hurts every day and I'm considering stepping back from furry somewhat. She became a big part of why I liked all of this, I could get art that made her smile and she seemed to genuinely enjoy the fantasy. I'm sure I won't be able to stop myself from checking in, but it will continue to hurt for a long time.

To those of you I'm close to, you know how to get ahold of me. To everyone else, happy holidays and may your 2025 be better than my 2024.