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2024 was a rough year
10 months ago
❀Azure's journal❀ I just thought I should write my last journal for 2024 since the year is about to be over soon. I didn't get to draw/paint as much artwork as I wanted, but I'm hoping I'll be able to post more next year. Looking back on 2023, I posted more in 2024 which is an improvement. I'll be working more on that in 2025. Going forward, I think Imma continue focusing on my social media that's art-based first and then the others. Bluesky hasn't been horrible to be on, but it's been a pretty rough year since I found out that my ex-friend wasn't being impersonated, but it was the ex-friend who used a throwaway account to yell at everyone who stopped being friends with them which was really immature...
If I wanted to reconnect with someone that's something I just wouldn't ever do this way. I always message people privately, because in public It's not only creepy, but it's rude too. If they messaged me privately then maybe I would have reconsidered. Then they called me boring because I didn't want to deal with drama during a holiday. This past year I've been having a ton of health issues and pain, and the last thing I need is drama. I don't like to make callout posts, but if it gets worse, I most likely will call this guy out and I already reported them. They didn't need to do that and it was on Thanksgiving of all days at that. It made me really uncomfortable that someone that used to be my friend ten years ago, would do something like that. I had no idea they still held on to a grudge for ten years.
That is really sad. In the last ten years, I've grown a lot. Back then, I was really bad at talking to people about things, and at the time, I also lost my father. It was such a rough time that I distanced myself from a lot of people who seemed toxic, weird, or just overall not compatible. It was so stressful losing my father, I just didn't want to deal with any more issues. I'm wondering with the fact that I've been improving my artwork a lot that this ex-friend was bitter about that when they don't even post their stuff online that often, and I thought I had a lack of posts at least I'm trying my best. I rather focus on myself than be bitter and envious of others. I'm just glad I dodged a bullet.
I can see now that it could have been a lot worse and I'm glad that my 23-year-old self was right about this person. This person was so spiteful. I did the right thing. That being said, going forward I just want to have more fun next year and ignore drama, but I'm for sure going to be more intolerant of it going forward and will block on the spot unless there's history with someone that's good otherwise I'm just going to move on. I've been trying to process my late grandmother passing on a few months ago in August so that's why I was so distant the rest of this year. Death is a natural part of life, but it doesn't make it any easier to deal with. I'm still needing to think about it, but I'll talk about it if I feel more comfortable going into detail, but for now, I just want to enjoy the end of 2024. That's what my lost loved ones would have wanted. I'll miss them.
If I wanted to reconnect with someone that's something I just wouldn't ever do this way. I always message people privately, because in public It's not only creepy, but it's rude too. If they messaged me privately then maybe I would have reconsidered. Then they called me boring because I didn't want to deal with drama during a holiday. This past year I've been having a ton of health issues and pain, and the last thing I need is drama. I don't like to make callout posts, but if it gets worse, I most likely will call this guy out and I already reported them. They didn't need to do that and it was on Thanksgiving of all days at that. It made me really uncomfortable that someone that used to be my friend ten years ago, would do something like that. I had no idea they still held on to a grudge for ten years.
That is really sad. In the last ten years, I've grown a lot. Back then, I was really bad at talking to people about things, and at the time, I also lost my father. It was such a rough time that I distanced myself from a lot of people who seemed toxic, weird, or just overall not compatible. It was so stressful losing my father, I just didn't want to deal with any more issues. I'm wondering with the fact that I've been improving my artwork a lot that this ex-friend was bitter about that when they don't even post their stuff online that often, and I thought I had a lack of posts at least I'm trying my best. I rather focus on myself than be bitter and envious of others. I'm just glad I dodged a bullet.
I can see now that it could have been a lot worse and I'm glad that my 23-year-old self was right about this person. This person was so spiteful. I did the right thing. That being said, going forward I just want to have more fun next year and ignore drama, but I'm for sure going to be more intolerant of it going forward and will block on the spot unless there's history with someone that's good otherwise I'm just going to move on. I've been trying to process my late grandmother passing on a few months ago in August so that's why I was so distant the rest of this year. Death is a natural part of life, but it doesn't make it any easier to deal with. I'm still needing to think about it, but I'll talk about it if I feel more comfortable going into detail, but for now, I just want to enjoy the end of 2024. That's what my lost loved ones would have wanted. I'll miss them.
