So here comes the end of the winter break and the beginning of the final semester of school. My schedule is gonna be rough but if I did it last semester I think I can barely manage again. However this time I'll also be prepping for the final tests and certifications I need in order to get my degree and certified as a surgical tech. I'm extremely nervous and wish I could have just one more semester to learn and practice. I'll deal with what I can though and hope I can manage to pull this off.

Now as for dating. I admit easily that I've had basically never had a love life like ever no one i could say I was even flirting with. However I met someone a year almost ago and on multiple occassions theyve admitted that I'm one of few people they like to talk to regularly, we spent a lot of time online together, we met in person a few times and spent hours together talking and such and usually said bye with hugs and going our seperate ways. They live less than an hour drive from me and are really sweet and to me at least are everything I would want in a persons personality. Now I never considered their looks but they are a little taller than me, and are significantly better looking than me like no contest this would be the 1 who wants to date a 9-10. However for over a month I been wanting to confess that I at least have feelings for them and that if they dont feel the same its no problem I'd like to stay at least friends as they are very fun to be around. Thing is that if that were to happen I'm not sure they would see me the same. When I finally decided to confess and asked to hang out at their house or go out turned out that night someone had tried to break into their house and they were installing cameras and such to make sure it didnt happen again, they had a few parties with family coming over for holidays and birthdays, and had gotten a new puppy who couldnt be left alone for long. So havent had time to do much of anything together especially with my work chewing up the morning hours. Now that i've had time to think on it and talk more about how they celebrate things i'm having very hesitant thoughts. As they are the type of person who has a lot of money or at least significantly more than me and I keep thinking to myself am I worth dating them if they were to say yes? As they go to plays, musicals, go on cruises and long trips on a whim, have a massive house, go to steakhouses that require reservations, and have a very nice car. Like nothing from what I've seen or they mentioned sounds like something I could do. In our little towns there isnt alot like the things they mentioned and the stuff they mentioned like going on 3 trips in a month and a cruise having enough to donate to the theater that they get free tickets for any show they wanna see are all things I could do maybe once every few months before school sapped my funds.

So all my negative thoughts are in the end starting to win and im like is it fair for me to even ask if they wanna attempt dating? As I'm in a different money tier, I look significantly worse, I have no idea how to date someone, and most of all I dont wanna lose a friend if those thoughts are right. If anyone reads this whole thing can I ask your advice?