This has been going on for like 6 years straight now. Pretty much since when my mum had a stroke back at the end of 2018. I have no idea, but when I get an idea in my head to draw something, I go to try to draw i on paper and it vanishes. Am I trying too hard? Maybe I am just lazy?? I miss drawing things and working on art. Maybe I should like re-learn basic skills, and then up? I did want to polish drawing skills, along with coloring, detailing, and shading/highlighting. I dunno, but I would like to change that this year.