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Well....Its been awhile
9 months ago
Well, it's been more than a freaking decade since I last posted so I doubt anyone will remember but I figured I should probably say something.
First off, it's safe to assume, that "The squall" won't be finished. It's been so long since writing that I don't remember much about the story. Plus, the amount of time it took between chapters didnt help. The biggest issue is simply the trials and tribulations of real life. First, college took up most of my time and money. My computer was starting to lose it's reliability and now that it's 20 years old, I'm confident it will no longer work. My only way to use the internet has been via smartphone, so that hindered my abilities as well. Considering I work full time and am living paycheck to paycheck, I probably won't be replacing it anytime soon, if ever.
What also hampered me (And still does) is my mental issues. I suffer with major depression, anxiety, and a shit ton of insecurities. I always compared myself to others and I still do. And as life continued, I found myself less and less involved with the Fandom. I dont know if I lost interest or if it was simply due to life. Its been hard. Granted it's been hard for everyone I'm sure. Its hard to enjoy the things you love when depression makes you lose interest and life takes time and focus away.
I miss this Fandom. Coming back here and to sofurry reminded me why I love this fandom. I want to try and frequent these spaces more and interact but as far as writing goes, it's done. Its just been so long now, I feel it would need to be rewritten. The same goes for commissioning artwork. I still care about these characters but as I mentioned, Im living paycheck to paycheck and it's been that way for years. I wish to see more with them but I don't see it happening.
To those that are still here, first off, thank you for enjoying what I made and commissoned. I can't apologize enough for not being able to finish the story. The squall was more or less a story that I wanted to read but couldn't find so I tried to myself. The problem with that is that it doesn't have the same affect. It's like knowing the plot of a movie before seeing it and that hindered me in addition to what I mentioned.
I absolutely do not blame anyone who feels betrayed and angry. I can't lie and make a promise I can not keep.
First off, it's safe to assume, that "The squall" won't be finished. It's been so long since writing that I don't remember much about the story. Plus, the amount of time it took between chapters didnt help. The biggest issue is simply the trials and tribulations of real life. First, college took up most of my time and money. My computer was starting to lose it's reliability and now that it's 20 years old, I'm confident it will no longer work. My only way to use the internet has been via smartphone, so that hindered my abilities as well. Considering I work full time and am living paycheck to paycheck, I probably won't be replacing it anytime soon, if ever.
What also hampered me (And still does) is my mental issues. I suffer with major depression, anxiety, and a shit ton of insecurities. I always compared myself to others and I still do. And as life continued, I found myself less and less involved with the Fandom. I dont know if I lost interest or if it was simply due to life. Its been hard. Granted it's been hard for everyone I'm sure. Its hard to enjoy the things you love when depression makes you lose interest and life takes time and focus away.
I miss this Fandom. Coming back here and to sofurry reminded me why I love this fandom. I want to try and frequent these spaces more and interact but as far as writing goes, it's done. Its just been so long now, I feel it would need to be rewritten. The same goes for commissioning artwork. I still care about these characters but as I mentioned, Im living paycheck to paycheck and it's been that way for years. I wish to see more with them but I don't see it happening.
To those that are still here, first off, thank you for enjoying what I made and commissoned. I can't apologize enough for not being able to finish the story. The squall was more or less a story that I wanted to read but couldn't find so I tried to myself. The problem with that is that it doesn't have the same affect. It's like knowing the plot of a movie before seeing it and that hindered me in addition to what I mentioned.
I absolutely do not blame anyone who feels betrayed and angry. I can't lie and make a promise I can not keep.
But it is good to be back and Im certainly going to try to stay.
Well, first of all, welcome back, my friend. I'm sorry life has been weird. In fairness, it's been weird for us all with Covid and Trump (*retch*) but seems you had it worse than most.
As you can see, I'm not often in these parts, but I'm still somewhat active with writing and other hobbies. I'd love to speak to you as we used to, back in happier, simpler times.
God bless, and Godspeed!!
I wouldn't say worse than most but things certainly could have been better. And yes, that orange thing hasn't done anything positive since it spawned into existence, let alone since it became "scrotus".
Im certainly going to try to be more regular around here but I doubt to the extent I used to what with life and all that jazz. I wouldn't mind chatting whenever the chance comes.
And to you as well!