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16 years ago
Lately I haven't been geting any sleep at night. I toss and turn and even cry out at times. the reason for all this is the same damn question running through my head all night long. am I really happy with the one I love? I keeped telling my self that I truly love him but deep down I knew that was a lie. I got so caught up in the idea of loving someone that I didn't see that what I had wasn't love but just the want to love. I never meant for this to happen and I never wanted to hurt anyone but I just can't take it any more.
I was happy for a time but I always knew there was something missing. I felt love once truly I did and I let it slip away. I felt that fire that burns so hot every time that I was even close to him. I don't know why I let this go on for so long. how could I not see that this wasn't real. why would I say no when hes standing right in front of me. how was I abel to suppress that wild fire that burns for him. what have I done.
I haven't told either of them this and I don't want to but I know I must. I don't want to lose either of them but I know I might.
God help us all.
I was happy for a time but I always knew there was something missing. I felt love once truly I did and I let it slip away. I felt that fire that burns so hot every time that I was even close to him. I don't know why I let this go on for so long. how could I not see that this wasn't real. why would I say no when hes standing right in front of me. how was I abel to suppress that wild fire that burns for him. what have I done.
I haven't told either of them this and I don't want to but I know I must. I don't want to lose either of them but I know I might.
God help us all.
Relationships take work, and in this case both parties need to actively work to rekindle that fire, to find a reason to stay together. If you can't, then at least you'll both have closure on the fact that neither of you could find a reason to stay together, so you can both agree to part ways happily, and if you want, to stay friends.
So I knew the next thing i had to do was to tell my mate the truth, I couldn't keep him in the dark about somthing like this. I told him all that had happen between me and my friend. he didn't get mad all he said was that he was disappointed and glad that I told him. I was ready for what every he had for me. I didn't want to hurt him and he said your still here and thats all I need. as long as you stay you woun't hurt me. I didn't and still don't know why he would want to keep me after all that I had done wrong by him.
so now im back where I started only now I can sleep...
(this should be a new journal entry)
Most of all, you were truthful to your mate, and once things were sorted, you told him the truth. That's why he still wants to be with you. Many people tend to try and hide these occurrences, and when their mates find out the truth, they're angry at the secrecy.
You've been open, and you're with someone who cares about you enough to understand what you have been going through, and accept that all in all, you're still the same person despite it. Live your life, and be confident, because you're handling things beautifully :)