I feel really numb.

Just hours after FC ended and left the convention center, I then left for work and I've been greatly affected by bad news. At around his early 70's, my father's brother after an experimental procedure to treat his bone cancer had failed him, and he reacted very negatively to it. He died at around 11:00 my time.

I was hoping that truly, he will make it to May or June or if lucky July as expected by the doctors, since his cancer got strong and resisted treatment, but it was that recently, he got really sick, and declined a lot. It was while I was at FC's Friday or Saturday dance that there was a WhatsApp call from my cousin that I saw that I got to see him, and he looked quite thin and not like the uncle I knew that is filled with life. I can presume that his love of smoking and drinking in the past did him in now, and this is the price he paid. What got me also was that he went to the hospital requesting for oxygen, but the doctors refused to give it to him - so yes, the healthcare in Canada is starting to go down on quality, and I don't want to get sick over there if this is how they treated my uncle. 😠

I was hoping that he would live longer than this-I was expecting him to not die during FC, but BARELY, he did not and I did not have me decide to leave FC. Yes, if you were at FC: Unleashed!, I did have this in mind that if something were to happen, I would have to decide. The good thing is that I had a positive that he's still living, but I do not know how long. I had to keep a positive that he's okay and could still have some chance to live a few more weeks, but it was DAYS. However, no news occured while I was in San Jose, and I would think that everyone was trying to hide the terrible news from me so that I can enjoy the con to the fullest, even my cousin that called when I was enjoying the dance.

Luckily no news occurred during Dead Dog-it is tradition that I would attend all the overnight dances, and as of now, that tradition is not broken. What would have happened was that with me not liking the felonious president, I would have cried for a LONG TIME for many things -I did make friends, and with that, I did have a positive going on to counteract the impending loss that I have today. So yes, I will be more connected with the friends I have made, and I will hope for the better. The death of my uncle along with the re-instatement of Trump and the ongoing SoCal fires now going to San Diego, along with many others that make the month somber makes this the WORST January that I'm getting in my life so far.
Attending FurCon was a needed diversion from the melancholic and bewildering times I'm going through, and if it were that I didn't, I don't know what I would do. There is a fact-the third Monday is the saddest after the holidays as there's the depression that they're over, some are not meeting resolutions, and there is the upcoming tax season-I heard this on the news radio. And now, since the 21st is going to land on that third Monday, well, if I do remember his death, it will be the saddest Monday I'll ever have, especially for one year, FurCon can end on that 21st. I can hope that I will forget his death like I forgot the death date of my father's sister that died of breast cancer. So, if you have seen me at FurCon, and see me wear a shirt from Stand Up to Cancer ( https://standuptocancer.org/ ), that shirt means a whole lot more, and I will soon donate in his honor, DEFINITELY-especially when I almost lost my father in the 12th grade to prostate cancer-the doctors found it just in time before it got worse.

So, yes, at every con I attend, I will wear that shirt from SU2C so everyone can be aware of a fight against cancer-it can affect ANYONE AT ANY AGE. Do donate for anyone you know, family or friend close to you that lost the battle to cancer. And do comfort those going through tough losses to the fullest.

I will hope for the best for my uncle-he may have had a good life, but my heart is heavy. I'll soon have time to be off of FA to reflect and recover from this loss; it could be this weekend that I will disable it temporarily-I don't want to put anyone down or do something that I will regret later on. My Ferzu will still be open, so will my lightly used Weasyl, and I will be open on Telegram and Discord. Ahead of time, I will thank you for your wishes, and condolences you give me. Thanks.