Hello everyone, at this point I'm just spiraling so I figured I should at least try to reach out; I'm currently at -$217 on my bank balance from a loan payment and I've yet to pay utilities.

Planning on responding to everyone's comments from the last journal entry, thanks so much to everyone who's reached out.

it's been a truly horrendous start to 2025 and it's affecting everything. I haven't been making near any original stuff because the time and energy just isn't there. I really like my characters but any work that goes into them is work that's not directly making me any money which is no longer viable, and that's nagging at my brain the entire time I even try. and that's just an awful-feeling spot to be. it's a recipe for daily burnout. even commissions are getting a healthy chunk taken out upfront now because of the PayPal loan I just needed for rent. I'm not even making what I'm making.
At this point I don't know what to do.

I dunno it's 4 AM maybe I'll feel better tomorrow. Er today.

http://ko-fi.com/riendonut <<< my ko-fi link if you'd like to help, if nothing else thanks for hearing me out ><

(EDIT: out of the negatives, thanks so much peoples ;.; <3 sleeping does indeed help I gotta fix my sleep schedule ><)