I was trying to avoid asking. I have not done good by the people I owe art, this past year and change has been a nightmare, and I've done my best to tough through. A massive art block interwoven with depression and hardships that have left my work at a near stand-still. I need help desperately. I have bills to pay, and with the only job I could find still cutting my hours for months, I am still in a negative cash flow and my card is counting up. I can't in good faith take more commissions until I finish what I owe, some of which are over a year old at this point. It's taking everything I have just to get up most mornings, I'm always exhausted. Now following my application to increase my disability benefits from the military, they're proposing to decrease it instead. "We know you asked for an increase because things have gotten worse, but we think things have gotten better, so we're going to decrease your support" What moron has that kind of logic?

I need help... I hate having to approach the fandom as a begging charity case. I've been doing everything I can to avoid it, to make things right, get past all my issues to complete work I owe... It's too much pressure from all sides... I find that most days I end up reflexively avoiding everything, which means less gets done, and I just feel worse after not feeling at all for a little while. I don't know what other help can be offered, and I wish I did, but please... if anyone can send some help, thank you.

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