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9 months ago
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It has been several months since I graduated at the top of my class with a director's award. I haven't gotten a single job, and only three or so interviews, none of which were for games. The friends I graduated with are also struggling extremely hard despite being at the top of their respective degrees as well. We have all made a couple games together in game jams to build our portfolios. Fact is the video game industry (and the tech industry in general) is collapsing. My goals have always been to make games, be independent, and make my own family. I am achieving none of these. I am starting therapy. The state of the US and the rest of the world is angering but it is what it is.
Ultimately, I don't want to be where I am now writing erotica. I don't see a future in writing, and I haven't felt that love for writing in a long, long time. I always want to shoot for the moon and create something amazing. It pains me, but the world keeps getting crazier, and I need to fend for myself. I have been learning everything I can about coding through Freecodecamp.org because I'm unsure what the next step I can take is. Web design? Idk. Seems like everything entry level can be made with AI.
I just need a stable position somewhere to get me by. Trying to make it with writing is just not feasible. It takes me a good hour just to write 1000 words anymore. Even if I raise prices, that fear that I'll be in my 30's, 40's, and so on struggling as I am now is terrifying. Quite honestly if I didn't have my friends right now, I would be homeless.
So I think I want to spend all the time I have pushing to get something better. I think I am going to force myself to limit my time on here, on video games, and everywhere else until something good happens. I'm going to study hard and keep applying myself, just as I did before with college. This sucks big time but I don't know what else to do. Please, if you know of anything I can do - editing writing, working for a paper or magazine, Blender, coding with HTML, CSS, C++, or anything you can think of, please tell me. Otherwise I guess this is it for now. :/
Thank you to those who have kept an eye on me. I appreciate all the messages. I'll still be around.
Ultimately, I don't want to be where I am now writing erotica. I don't see a future in writing, and I haven't felt that love for writing in a long, long time. I always want to shoot for the moon and create something amazing. It pains me, but the world keeps getting crazier, and I need to fend for myself. I have been learning everything I can about coding through Freecodecamp.org because I'm unsure what the next step I can take is. Web design? Idk. Seems like everything entry level can be made with AI.
I just need a stable position somewhere to get me by. Trying to make it with writing is just not feasible. It takes me a good hour just to write 1000 words anymore. Even if I raise prices, that fear that I'll be in my 30's, 40's, and so on struggling as I am now is terrifying. Quite honestly if I didn't have my friends right now, I would be homeless.
So I think I want to spend all the time I have pushing to get something better. I think I am going to force myself to limit my time on here, on video games, and everywhere else until something good happens. I'm going to study hard and keep applying myself, just as I did before with college. This sucks big time but I don't know what else to do. Please, if you know of anything I can do - editing writing, working for a paper or magazine, Blender, coding with HTML, CSS, C++, or anything you can think of, please tell me. Otherwise I guess this is it for now. :/
Thank you to those who have kept an eye on me. I appreciate all the messages. I'll still be around.
It's good to have a stable source of income while searching for more major-relevant opportunities. Helping me out by saving up money for my needs while keeping my bigger goals in mind.
Wishing you luck!