So many of you follow me here, and maybe some of y'all just wanna see art, but don't read journals, but I figured I'd update on why this last year it's taken me so long to get through commissions.
2023 November, I took a few emergency commissions because I was behind payments on a new bed that I didn't realize the company was gonna charge almost double for it if I didn't get it paid in time. Some of you sweet folks donated to me, or commissioned me and I was able to get it paid off in time. Just as I was trying to make headway to get started, my dog started to become ill. He developed dementia in an extremely short amount of time and he basically required ALL of my attention. If I wasn't watching him, sometimes he would have accidents (which led to many diapers and diaper changes), bump into things and hurt himself, or just pace in circles all confused until he finally exhausted himself. I was stressed out and depressed because I knew I didn't have much time with him, and the clock was ticking.

At the end of December, my partner of a year at that point and I decided to move in with one of his family members. Things were going fine at first, except a lot of my focus was still on my dog, and just trying to take care of him and balance doing delivery work to feed us/him and try to help with bills when I could, but it was hard to leave him unsupervised, and the small town we were now in made it hard to find work. The beginning of that February, I had to put my dog down because his quality of life wasn't good anymore, he was looking more and more confused, and it wrecked me. I felt like I could barely draw, all I could do was grieve. I remained behind on my commissions and had nothing much to show for it.

A few months passed, and things had become tense, and I felt like I was just causing issues by living in someone else's home without a steady income to pay my fair share of the bills, and I felt it better to move back in with my own family until I could get caught up. Moved to another state...for the 2nd time in like 6 months, and I felt like I was back at square one. My partner had moved with me, because he wanted to continue to support me and stay together, and I didn't feel like I deserved his dedication. Some things fell apart with the one family member, so we ended up moving in with my sister for a few months until we finally got our own place this past November.

So..I feel like 2024 was a mistake. I shouldn't have left Ohio the first time until he and I were ready, and knowing my dog was struggling and I should have focused more on saving money and doing commissions. We don't know what the future holds..but after moving 4 times in one year, I'm mentally and physically defeated. I still feel lost, we aren't sure where to go from here. All I can do now is catch up on these commissions that are over a year overdue. I am so sorry to those who paid for my service and I was unable to get around to it until recently. But please know I appreciate each of you DEARLY, and I am gonna keep doing my best with my work to make it right for everyone who has supported me this whole time. I love and appreciate you all.
If you read through this, thank you.