I'm going to be taking a hiatus now. I've been doing increasingly worse as of January. I don't know what's wrong with me or what to do really, I just hate everything and have lost all hope. I feel incredibly bad and like I burden others a lot. My friends have been so sweet trying to help me out but at what point does it impede on their health and their situations? I have to search a lot just to find it in me to drag myself out of bed. It has never been this bad in the past, I've had a sad spell once and a while but this is something different. I really resent life and how everything is. I've just lost a lot of me and I can't find it in myself to even search, I can only ask myself what is the point of all this? Why even try?
I know y'all aren't my therapist so I'll spare the details. I've been tempted to quit drawing and being a furry altogether. I don't wanna quit, I just want things to be easier, I want to feel like everything is fine and I'm okay. But I just don't, it's been dragging me down for way too long and I say the same things when trying to describe it. I can't even look at my drawing tablet rn. I just hate everything. So hopefully a hiatus, a break will give me time to reflect. I've made it a bad habit to compare myself to other artists and it's been destroying me. So a good break is needed. I'm so sorry to everyone, I feel like I failed you all.
Thank you for listening to my dumb sad state of affairs, you guys be safe out there!