I am wishing you the absolute best; these last few days have not been easy on you and I hope that you are able to look forward to brighter prospects and goals- may you never stop pushing onward- may your late grandma and others who are close to your heart help keep that internal fire stoked.

I understand why my parents are so against doctors. I go in and they are like "cool take some Midol and go home" Sometimes they are just stupid. But yes, get checked out if you don't feel well.
Terribly sorry for your loss. I miss my grandma a lot. <3

take your time to grieve as much as you need.