So I've been needing to say this for a long time now, but I've been pretty much skipping rocks this whole time as far as drawing. I've been putting it off almost every day now to the point where it doesn't even seem appetizing anymore. One of the reasons for that is due to ongoing pressure from my parents to go to college and get a degree. I chose to go with Fine Arts and that's quite a hard degree to get in this era, there's not even really much of a use for it anymore. The second reason is because of my last college class, which was "Color and design theory." I can tell you for a fact that I didn't learn anything about design, but I sure did learn about colors, and what colors stay hidden, and what colors get shown in the end (thanks Ms. Robby Rotten -_-) I also learned how unforgiving the art field really is and all the reason why I shouldn't get into it on a corporate level. It honestly left me crushed, disheartened, and most of all discouraged. That class ended towards the start of winter, which was somewhere around either late November or early December.

Ever since then, I haven't really kept a consistent drawing schedule since February. I've been stuck for a long time and my parents have little to no patience or tolerance for emotional pain, so often I never even speak of how I feel to them, not even as an artist. I tend to keep that life away from them cause of how traditional they are. More so for my sake rather than theirs. I'm getting to point now where I don't even think its worth being an artist at all anymore. Not even as a hobby. The only thing I feel like doing nowadays is hanging out with one or two friends and playing video games with them. That seems to be a better thing for me to do rather than stress over lines. I think its safe to say now that you guys won't be seeing anything from me for a while. Except for the occasional drawing or NSFW Kink art. I'm done trying to meet expectations and/or keep my viewership up.

I should say that I am not by any means leaving Bluesky or Furaffinity. I love Bluesky, its a lovely place for the furry community because of how much control you have over what you see. I wouldn't want to leave that at all. As far as Furaffinity, I post here mostly for archival purposes. This isn't one of those rants where its like "aaaa I'm leaving," no I'm still going to be very active online, just not the way you think I am. I'll be around for as long as I can. I'm also not going to completely dissociate myself from the furry art community. I am just pretty much putting my stylus pen down and closing up shop for a while. I don't know for how long, I guess however long it needs to take. This could be a sign of severe depression, but that's not necessarily something I want to talk about at the moment. Until I can find the drive I had for drawing again, I'm pretty much done for now. I'm amazed that I've been going for this long honestly, 2 and a half years...

- Dark