I don't know how to start this journal, but it's been a long week and a half or so. I apologize if my writing is all over the place.
The good news is my mom's taking her health seriously and been getting much needed surgeries done as well as other things, so I haven't been too active online due to helping care for her and my sister.

But we took my cat Ramsey to the vet on the 14th to have various tests done to see what was wrong with him due to sudden weight loss & acting strange. We found out he was in end-stage kidney failure and spent over $3k to try and save him with hospitalizations, and everything he needed at home. But he wasn't improving and declined so fast and made the difficult decision to have him put to sleep Thursday night. I've been a mess since then, and actively avoiding being home or in my room. Ramsey was a perfect angel of a cat who did nothing wrong, didn't know what aggression was, never angry, never hurt anyone or anything and overall the most sweetest, gentle, teddy bear of a cat in existence. I always considered him my emotional support and therapy cat. He was worth every penny and I'm just happy I got to have more time with him until the end and wasn't just so sudden like with Monkey.

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Sorry for such a sad journal, I loved that cat as much as Monkey and it hurts I've lost both in under a year.
I'll be posting stuff here and there once I feel better, right now I don't have the motivation.