This is fine...
7 months ago
https://youtu.be/qmsF3xbqnR8?si=HvK.....J4C2g&t=35
My actual mental state with things honestly.
It's... been hard to say the least due to various things I simply do not have any control over.
The fact I've been basically in ground zero with the... wonderful changes with my work, somehow NOT getting let go, but now having to report on a weekly basis (something I already do) but via "bullet points" else I would be further reviewed of my job.
Seeing co-workers who have been at their jobs some just starting, others being there for ages now being told they're "redundant" by a petulant person who's just incredibly full of themselves.
along with that, still seeing people who are struggling financially as I see it far too often nowadays to the point things are VERY dire, but alas I can't help due to several situations that cropped up on my own end.
There was a time I was able to take such chances and it wouldn't effect me financially, but now thanks to pretty much everything; that's once again something I could not control, I have to try and budget as best I can.
I would like to say am thankful it's nothing medical, but the fact I'm still paying for repairs for my home and such. it's kinda annoying.
When I got on here seeing people that shared my kinks and being able to help others when things were sucky for them was a great feeling...
yet it never seemed to solved the problems.
and now as things keep getting more and more uncertain I just hope.
Is it pointless? I don't see it that way, because it's NOT a sin to have empathy being apathetic is.
Regardless with how rough things are, I'll still try to just enjoy what time allows it as this clip says pretty much what I need to remember.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JRqB2pm33IM
just try to do what you can.
My actual mental state with things honestly.
It's... been hard to say the least due to various things I simply do not have any control over.
The fact I've been basically in ground zero with the... wonderful changes with my work, somehow NOT getting let go, but now having to report on a weekly basis (something I already do) but via "bullet points" else I would be further reviewed of my job.
Seeing co-workers who have been at their jobs some just starting, others being there for ages now being told they're "redundant" by a petulant person who's just incredibly full of themselves.
along with that, still seeing people who are struggling financially as I see it far too often nowadays to the point things are VERY dire, but alas I can't help due to several situations that cropped up on my own end.
There was a time I was able to take such chances and it wouldn't effect me financially, but now thanks to pretty much everything; that's once again something I could not control, I have to try and budget as best I can.
I would like to say am thankful it's nothing medical, but the fact I'm still paying for repairs for my home and such. it's kinda annoying.
When I got on here seeing people that shared my kinks and being able to help others when things were sucky for them was a great feeling...
yet it never seemed to solved the problems.
and now as things keep getting more and more uncertain I just hope.
Is it pointless? I don't see it that way, because it's NOT a sin to have empathy being apathetic is.
Regardless with how rough things are, I'll still try to just enjoy what time allows it as this clip says pretty much what I need to remember.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JRqB2pm33IM
just try to do what you can.
FA+

Thankfully, I'm luckier than many in the fact that my job makes me "essential to the military readiness of the nation"; I'm a DoD GS civvy instructor specifically for a Navy 'A' school (basic training for people that have passed boot camp and now need to know how to do their jobs that they joined the Navy to do) and what little actual military staff we have here in the schoolhouses are too damn busy running around taking care of a dozen random collateral duties instead of their primary duty that they were actually assigned here to do in the first place; teach. And as for the civilian instructors, we're constantly running this place with just enough bodies to cover all of the classes we have on board at any given time with only enough leeway in case one of us calls out sick or something. Any more than that and we have to get extremely creative in how we actually teach all of the classes without just sending the trainees home for the day. With the threat of the shutdown we just faced a couple of weeks ago, even our military leadership in our schoolhouse threatened the upper chain of command that if any of us were deemed 'non-essential' and therefore furloughed, he would officially cancel all presently on-board training courses immediately because there would be no one to teach said classes.
Just remember, you aren't alone in this fight; there's a lot more of us than there are of them, and we've got each others' backs. And hopefully it won't be long before people get too sick and tired of the carrot-colored imbecile and "President Musk" to throw them all out. It'll be fekkin painful in the meantime, but the fact that judges and congress are constantly throwing out the BS 'laws' and EOs and fighting our would-be dictators gives me that little speck of hope that people still have some sort of common sense. There is, in fact, a light at the end of the tunnel. And with enough willpower, we'll get there.
Trying not to let it effect me (a tad hard when my folks are championing the current party and such) but do hold on to some sort of hope.