The year has not started in the best way, my uncle died in January, I had to put my favourite cat to sleep a few days ago,... She was diagnosed with leukaemia and covid. She just stopped eating at some point, but she was drinking water. We thought she was pregnant as she had a belly like there were kittens inside. But it turned out to be ascites..... and then she stopped drinking and going to the toilet. We tried to feed her, tried to give her water, but she did not get better (we also took her to the nearest town, to a veterinary clinic, but there was no equipment there). I took her to a bigger town and yes, they did tests, took blood, did an ultrasound..... Leukaemia and covid, and-- I didn't want her to continue to suffer and the decision was made to euthanise her. I was right there with her when they gave her the injection.

Now I feel a deep desolation, like a part of my soul has been ripped out of me. I miss her so much. Why does it hurt so much to lose your favourite fluffy ones....