I just realized that I've not posted a journal in almost a year. so yea, not dead. it's almost my birthday again and still feeling depressed, anxious and miserable as usual. got a couple things in the works that might work out a little better for my mental health. went to a convention recently (Furcationland) and that was fun. but now it's back to work and wishing I was anywhere but there every day of my life. anyways. happy almost birthday to me, and I'm still standing even if life wants to kick me in the gut every time I try and feel good about something.