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7 months ago
Hello everyone, I hope you are well.
As you probably know, I'm not really used to writing journals, but certain events I've been dealing with for too long now unfortunately force me to keep you updated on certain things.
Even if some of you already know:
January 2024, on my birthday, my mother was diagnosed with a very aggressive cancerous tumor, an extremely rare tumor. She was able to undergo surgery, and following this difficult operation, which lasted over five hours, I came very close to losing her. Throughout the year, she had to undergo a difficult experimental chemotherapy protocol given the rare nature of her cancer. As misfortunes never come alone, other serious family problems erupted in my little family and occurred one after another throughout last year, which was extremely difficult for me to cope with. I tried to hold on as best I could, continuing to offer you content and my services, revealing to only a handful of people the problems I was going through, the constant stress that was gnawing at my stomach and greatly affecting my work. We lived almost day by day because the protocol was experimental, and even the doctors couldn't predict the effects in advance.
On a positive note, the end of the year offered us a respite when we learned that the cancer was in remission and that the chemo sessions and the protocol could finally be paused, allowing us to spend the holidays in a very pleasant and joyful atmosphere.
Unfortunately, a relapse occurred in January of this year, which was even more aggressive and widespread. In less than a month, all the progress of the previous year was suddenly wiped out, and we were shocked to learn what the follow-up scan had revealed. Despite the efforts of the doctors, the nursing staff, and a new immunotherapy protocol, it only took four short months for my mother's health to worsen day by day, and we have reached the point where things are at an extremely critical stage. She can no longer walk, she can no longer eat or drink. Everything is done with the help of tubes, but it's not enough to allow her body to fight.
Let's be honest, today the doctors only talk about hours or a few days left before the end. The fight is nearing its end. My grandparents are absolutely desperate, and I know how hard this will affect them.
Since, things have drastically worsened, I have stayed by my mother's side, I have watched over her, helped her with my presence, made her forget all that, just been there for her. Unfortunately, I'm not a doctor, but that's all I can give her: the gentle affection she's given me my entire life. From the beginning, she's been my shining star, supporting me in my life and my projects. It's thanks to this gentle encouragement that I've become an independent artist today. She's proud of my journey, and I've fought hard to show her I'm capable of it. She is and remains my compass in life, my inspiration, the woman of my life.
Now you understand why I've been much less present lately, even though I've tried to stay consistent with my posts. That's the problem with being an artist: as soon as you stop posting, you lose visibility, which is very harmful.
Writing these lines breaks my heart. I didn't write this journal to earn your pity. I think it was time to share what I was going through because some people were starting to worry or realize something was wrong. We always think that cancer only happens to other people, but when it enters your life, it's a hateful and vicious poison that destroys you because it takes away everything you love. With my current work stoppage, no longer having time to work, no longer taking on commissions, things have become very difficult, and my family has advised me for the first time to ask for donations from my community, you who have followed me for all these years. I am deeply sorry to have to announce such terrible news, all so suddenly.
Now it's up to you. Only if you want to and only if you can, you are free to decide whether or not I am legetimate to receive a donation that will allow me to stay afloat. I have a Ko-fi page, Paypal or Patreon as well. This is probably a desperate plea, but knowing that I'm no longer working to make the most of the time I have left with my mother, every small donation will feel like extra time you're giving me to spend with her.
Thank you in advance for your help and support during these hard times.
As you probably know, I'm not really used to writing journals, but certain events I've been dealing with for too long now unfortunately force me to keep you updated on certain things.
Even if some of you already know:
January 2024, on my birthday, my mother was diagnosed with a very aggressive cancerous tumor, an extremely rare tumor. She was able to undergo surgery, and following this difficult operation, which lasted over five hours, I came very close to losing her. Throughout the year, she had to undergo a difficult experimental chemotherapy protocol given the rare nature of her cancer. As misfortunes never come alone, other serious family problems erupted in my little family and occurred one after another throughout last year, which was extremely difficult for me to cope with. I tried to hold on as best I could, continuing to offer you content and my services, revealing to only a handful of people the problems I was going through, the constant stress that was gnawing at my stomach and greatly affecting my work. We lived almost day by day because the protocol was experimental, and even the doctors couldn't predict the effects in advance.
On a positive note, the end of the year offered us a respite when we learned that the cancer was in remission and that the chemo sessions and the protocol could finally be paused, allowing us to spend the holidays in a very pleasant and joyful atmosphere.
Unfortunately, a relapse occurred in January of this year, which was even more aggressive and widespread. In less than a month, all the progress of the previous year was suddenly wiped out, and we were shocked to learn what the follow-up scan had revealed. Despite the efforts of the doctors, the nursing staff, and a new immunotherapy protocol, it only took four short months for my mother's health to worsen day by day, and we have reached the point where things are at an extremely critical stage. She can no longer walk, she can no longer eat or drink. Everything is done with the help of tubes, but it's not enough to allow her body to fight.
Let's be honest, today the doctors only talk about hours or a few days left before the end. The fight is nearing its end. My grandparents are absolutely desperate, and I know how hard this will affect them.
Since, things have drastically worsened, I have stayed by my mother's side, I have watched over her, helped her with my presence, made her forget all that, just been there for her. Unfortunately, I'm not a doctor, but that's all I can give her: the gentle affection she's given me my entire life. From the beginning, she's been my shining star, supporting me in my life and my projects. It's thanks to this gentle encouragement that I've become an independent artist today. She's proud of my journey, and I've fought hard to show her I'm capable of it. She is and remains my compass in life, my inspiration, the woman of my life.
Now you understand why I've been much less present lately, even though I've tried to stay consistent with my posts. That's the problem with being an artist: as soon as you stop posting, you lose visibility, which is very harmful.
Writing these lines breaks my heart. I didn't write this journal to earn your pity. I think it was time to share what I was going through because some people were starting to worry or realize something was wrong. We always think that cancer only happens to other people, but when it enters your life, it's a hateful and vicious poison that destroys you because it takes away everything you love. With my current work stoppage, no longer having time to work, no longer taking on commissions, things have become very difficult, and my family has advised me for the first time to ask for donations from my community, you who have followed me for all these years. I am deeply sorry to have to announce such terrible news, all so suddenly.
Now it's up to you. Only if you want to and only if you can, you are free to decide whether or not I am legetimate to receive a donation that will allow me to stay afloat. I have a Ko-fi page, Paypal or Patreon as well. This is probably a desperate plea, but knowing that I'm no longer working to make the most of the time I have left with my mother, every small donation will feel like extra time you're giving me to spend with her.
KO-FI: https://ko-fi.com/aliensymbol
PAYPAL: kronos.aliensymbol[at]gmail.com
PATREON: http://patreon.com/aliensymbol
DONATION LINK: https://www.paypal.com/cgi-bin/webs.....=5YVYB6HEX88RQ Thank you in advance for your help and support during these hard times.
Ill do my best to spread the word of your need around. Hopefully it can help you stay afloat in this dark time.
I've given you a little extra spending money so you two can try to liven up the atmosphere as best you can <3
Praying for her success through these impossible conditions!
I pray things get better for you. Even if they don't (and I'm begging they do), I hope you know that you aren't carrying this pain alone. When the tears come, weep, rest and know you and your family are supported by your entire community.
I'm so sorry, and I know how you feel.
*HUGS*
Hang in there, alright? It'll be fine. You have my support. I retweeted this on Twatter. I will also post a journal pointing to this journal of yours. It's all I can do 🤗💗👌🐉
may you all find the light at the end of the tunnel through all these dark times; sending you all my support and well wishes
My heart goes out to you and I'll try to spread the word around.
Your devotion is admirable, you're doing everything you can. I hope you'll get enough to stay by her side as long as possible... And to recover should... Well.
Nevertheless, take care of her and yourself; I'm sure she cares about how you feel.
Je vais essayer d’aider comme je peux. Ton entourage et tes amis sont là pour aider. Je t’envoie tout mon soutien et du courage pour la suite. 💙
I'm sending hugs and prayers!
I wish you, your mom, and your entire family peace and happiness.
Je ferrais également mon possible pour te soutenir avec les moyens possible, tu est fort et on est la pour toi ♡