I know this is a wierd thing to be depressed about... but I definitly know, Not having a Fursuit (Fullsuit) has been a huge thing.

I miss the feeling... It literally feels I lost a huge piece of myself... I don't like that people have destroyed a literal piece of me...

- I wished people were not as agressive with my stuff thinking its okay... but then not take accountablity and dosnt even fix it...

I gotten my fursuit back and a foot was lost and my ears were off my head... AND my teeth were melted... and they didnt even help pay for damages


I Literally cannot afford another fursuit and Im upset I cant do anything about it... Its a luxury but it was a literal part of me and even saved my life... the fact that people been so disrespectful with my stuff, my story, my very very very few boundries, bothers me... Im going to be having boundries from now on but I'm wicked depressed I dont have that part of me anymore.

I then see people getting v3 and 4 and 5 and im sitting here like.... im happy for them but im just so fucking disapointed to the people who hurt me and hurt my shit....

I'd feel im the last person for all of this shit to happen... I'm going through therapy now for CPTSD

I'm literally crying making this post cause Im Seeing my worth and im seeing that I deserved none of this.... from here on out, I need to work on being assertive and make boundries

Im thankful for the people whom have repaired her to make me happy <3 there are good people out there. I'm just sad that the unhealthy people seem to be louder.



Also:

My biggest pet peeve is when I'm with someone and they are on their phone most of the time. If its work and such, thats okay but if youre just looking at social media and such... when you can do that at home .... then ya...

If you know me, I'm barely on my phone as a sign of respect because time spending with someone is valuable to me. I want to create memories and talk about life and everything. Not just have memories of videos on peoples phones.

Please do the same for me because my time is just as valuable