hey y'all, thanks for following me (hopefully for the music? no shame if not)

to keep it quick, i'm going to upload a lot of electronic experiments as they come out. i'm trying to make conventional dance tunes, and i'm having a lot of fun doing it!

i guess finally uploading stuff is a change to my previous uploading habits of...nothing much with the occasional pencil sketch of daryl and burnaby, but yknow. that's it's own thing.

more context about me yaay

these days i'm living in a place where i can't work on rock tunes, and i feel suffocated to take out the guitar and sing. it's not that i don't mind letting my voice be heard by my upstairs neighbours, it's just that i don't get a whole lot of continuous silence where i can record vocals and guitars in peace. it also disrupts the flow and has been killing my creative drive, so that's been kind of bust. i've mostly been waiting until i move out to somewhere more condusive to make those kinds of songs, as the library isn't quite the place for me to do songwriting either. in the meantime i've been focusing on my job, living my life, and otherwise honing more my electronic production skills.

so back to the uploads: what i've been uploading lately has mostly been about EDM. i'm trying to make good-enough sounding EDM with more conventional dance beats, just to see what i can do within that realm. my hope is to make fun tunes that could be spun at a party that tap into the nostalgia i have for old adventure games, edutainment games, silly looney tunes-type media, and things that i just think are underexplored in terms of audible and visual aesthetics. i'm talking kid pix deluxe paint 3, pajama sam, spy fox, putt putt goes to the moon, old flash games/sites for your favourite nicktoons, homestar runner, the good stuff from the good old days. my ambition tells me to make a multimedia disc release, but the practical side of myself says to start with just experimenting with sound design and go from there.

my plan is to eventually release a series of mini-albums containing the dance-y ideas i've come up with. stuff that feels more lived-in by virtue of my experience at dances, rather than the previous electronic music i was making as daryl dee where it even having a coherent bassline was kind of an accident.

since this stuff is not the rock album i was going to put out as daryl dee (that'd be "hindsight") i've been curious if i should get a new bandcamp url, or make it a daryl dee alias under the same bandcamp page? or maybe it's all going back under goodnightgirl.bandcamp.com ... but then it depends entirely on how vulgar or sexual i want to be in these songs. i'm leaning towards no, and that might be the defining reason why it sticks under goodnightgirl and not daryldee.

it feels like it's been years since I've really considered FL Studio as my go-to tool for music production, but this past week i've spent tens of hours in FL Studio for sound design. so that's been fun.

i only think this way because so much of daryldee's purpose for me was an invitation to just make art and not be anxious about the reception. not in a popularity sense, but just so i can write about PG13 or mature type subjects without feeling like i have to be cautious of what i show to my family, coworkers, et cetera. i think the longer i try to stave off writing about my sense of gender identity, sexuality, what i want on in intimate sense, the more it's going to slip into goodnightgirl's songs. it's been almost a decade since high school and i think i can bear making something that's not all-ages or even conventional for the average listener.

i still keep my two aliases, mostly because i'm attached to daryl dee as a character and the rocker-attitude in songwriting. i think having him as an alias frames the aesthetics and context of the songs in favour of their contents: rash thinking, sexual drive, cute boy, and ongoing crushes. i'm keeping that for the forseeable future. i guess it's then a question of if i'm going to write about these things in these electronic songs at all, since i've enjoyed them being either instrumental or potentially as a vehicle for the next earnest goodnight girl album.

these smaller experimental albums i want to be more or less inspired by the freeflowing format of brockhampton's saturation albums. they come as a series of results from experimentation and collaboration, including some bangers and some experiments that tie them together. more in the "it's loose but there's a distinct level of quality per-album", and knowing that the longer i spend on the process and reflect on what worked, the better the next one can be. i only anticipate making 2, but we'll see how far things go. i'm trying to cut even less than usual, and only ever re-work stuff to sound better than to give up on an idea because it's not executed the way i want to. i'm trying to make each song something appropriately danceable and with a good beat to vibe/jump around to. a lot of it has been simplifying what i'm doing to hit those dancefloor highs that come from just having a good beat and a very expressive bass sound. hence, i want to call the series of albums SUBWOOFER. cause like, it's furry bass music! of course i'm gonna call it SUBWOOFER!

i was hoping that this year i would try to make "daryl dee" a band, but i've already done a lot this year in terms of really branching out to do more. i'm gonna try performing a bit more solo first and see how that goes for my own format. but in any case i think i've found like a good set of "reasonings" as to why i'm splitting off these electronic sounds from daryl's name, even though he was responsible for them before? i dunno. i could also just embrace what's worked so well about the sound in the past on top of the new stuff, and just really not care about variety within an alias name. it's complicated, and i bet some of what i've written in this journal will turn out to be different than how i actually end up organizing my own releases.

anyways, i make promises to nobody about what i'm going to release because i'm already behind on the promises i make to myself 😎 so just sit tight, i guess. be a cool bird.