hey, please don't give up.... i think taking a good long break during bereavement is a really good idea, but in the future when you do finally get the motivation to draw again you'll probably regret deleting everything that you've already posted <3333

i know i'm a random person on the internet, but a few years ago i lost my dad and i struggled to create drawings for several months afterward and even now, after a few years, i still sometimes struggle to create anything. growing up my dad was an artist and he was my biggest inspiration to continue drawing, so losing him made me feel like i lost my spark.
but aside from bereavement, it's also just a very normal part of being an artist for some people, having art block and struggling to create and it just means you need a break.

so please, definitely take a break for a year or two if you need to, i'm sure that you really really need that, but please don't delete everything. <3333 i'm here if you ever want or need to vent or talk about it.

I appreciate your comment. my first comment ever actually.
I've buried both my parents already, and I definitely took a break when my mom died 3ish years ago.
but the 21st of may2025 marked one year since my fiance died. I don't think I can shake back from this. it's different than all the other deaths I've endured. I do feel like me any more. there's nothing i want or desire anymore. I go thru the motions just to keep people from worrying but I've grown tired now.

thanks again for listening/reading

oh, i understand. i'm so so sorry to read that about your fiance and i can't imagine how hard that must be, i really hope that you can come back from this but it also makes sense that you feel like you can't.

and ofc, tbh i was debating on leaving a comment or not bc i was worried that it'd be weird since i'm new here lol, but like i said i'm open to messages from you anytime if you want to just talk about happy memories or talk about struggling with the grief if you want to, no pressure at all of course if you dont want to or feel uncomfortable doing so.... either way, my notes are open for ya!!

i'm sorry and i wish you the best and strength.