you said i didnt love you
i did
i loved you, and i still love you
i loved you even with my previous bitch of an ex
and the decision i made, after when you showed up out of the blue, even after you shut down my attempt to get back together a couple of months before was out of fear
fear of getting back together and having it not work out even though a bigger portion of my heart craved you
i was afraid to choose you because of how things ended half a year prior to that, and i was scared
so i chose the new way forward instead which, in the end, ended up hurtthing to make it right, to choose you, and if you ever shown up in my chats, at my doorstep i would welcome you
i regret everything i have done wrong, every bad decision, every bad move, every fuckup, every ignoration, every lack of showing interest
i miss you, immensely, more than i think you are able to realize
i miss talking to you, hearing your voice, hearing your laugh, hearing your cheeky comments... i miss the whole you, not just the good times
i wish i could make it right

day 4 of waking up from having you in my dreams...
i still love you

if you ever held out your hand to me again, id take it, and i would do my damn hardest not to ever let go
i live in the past, a ghost of my former self, waiting for the thing i know that wont happen... i miss you
i did not mean to treat you so awfully, i just wish you could forgive me again and even if not from a blank sheet, but we could start over...
im sorry for everything i ever done wrong lycosa sorry for ignoring your approach sorry for ignoring your precious nature sorry for not tending to your needs enough sorry for being a let down sorry for breaking you heart on the day you deserved to be happy sorry for ruining everything for you sorry
im fucking dumb for not trying harder
and i will forever be sorry for everything i have done
just please, somehow consider giving me one last final chance even though i think you already have... i never stopped loving you for everything youve done for me

never