while im still working on stuff my brain is just in a constant state of flux. where im just stuck asking myself: "what am i getting out of this? is this worth it?" like i just can't shake this constant feeling that my work is just not good enough anymore. guess right now im just trying to find an answer to all of this so that i can finally feel that all my efforts is or has been worthwhile.

so sorry if i seem distant or quiet. but that's just because i really am trying to keep my distance so that i don't hurt myself overthinking this stuff or end up saying something stupid or regretful y'know?