Well, to start off this bit of venting, I'm severely questioning my place in this fandom... and life in general.


Recently, as I'm sure you've seen with my past journals, my mental health had taken a nose dive... and with real life being shit, it's been on a harsh roller-coaster ever since. (Being stuck in a homeless shelter with a ton of whack-jobs sure as shit doesn't help!)

I've also felt ignored by some people, or at least unacknowledged by a vast majority, which for someone who's been a major introvert their entire life and only ever had the primary physical companionship of my mother for over 30 years... it's been hell. So ~sorry~ if I have given/am giving needy 'pick me' vibes, but to hell with it, I don't give a fuck about y'all's thoughts on that.

And after having been re-reading a lot of the chakat stories lately, it's been stirring up a lot of feelings about my love of the species again and I'm thinking of maybe re-embracing Talia, my og chakat fursona. Though to be honest, I'm not even sure about being an active member of anything anymore.

Hell, I might even go back to being a full-on lurker again and not interact with other folks. Only as much for art... maybe.

So for now, this is goodbye motherfuckers. You all have such wonderful lives!


-- Signed, an easily forgettable tortured soul.








AND FUCK YOU BASTIEL, FOR BEING THE DAMNED CATALYST OF ALL THIS!! You had finally for once, offered something art wise for my birthday, AND YOU FUCKING FORGET ABOUT ME, AGAIN!!! And yes, this is why you've been blocked on Discord, Bsky and here as well! Oh and as a side-note, I've removed credit of you from the art still posted here, but if pushed too hard, I will just remove them altogether, as painful to me as that would be. :middle_finger: