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Five Year Anniversary
5 months ago
I'm cross-posting this from BSKY but it summarizes a lot of my feelings since being out:
It's been five years since I joined the fandom; which all traces back to this moment when
maikeru drew my characters Serena and Victor for the very first time. It was so simple, making a couple who I wanted to represent myself and things I enjoy, and yet it was life-changing.
For a really long time, I was a lurker of the fandom. I was really unsure and insecure about myself, especially when I had so many fears attaching myself to labels of furry and queer. Especially when...what could I offer these talented artists and creatives?
Because of COVID and the state of the world; I wasn't sure what to do. My curiosity had boiled over. What would it matter at this point if I were found out? The world's in crisis enough. And then one day, I asked an artist I really liked to do a drawing of characters who I made up a month ago.
The level of euphoria I experienced getting just the sketches back was almost too much to bare. In that first hour like, I felt a very dormant part had tapped into me had exploded from the ground like a volcano. They were beautiful, they were adorable, and they were real.
And then slowly I became more confident moving from then onward, repeating that feeling again and again. More new characters, more artists to talk to, more people who recognized the beauty and societal constrictions over fatness, and more emotional splendor seeing two large people love each other.
Over the past years, several of my IRL relationships whittled down or frayed apart cause of so many reasons. Especially now as I'm middle-aged and might be on the cusp of learning I have a chronic illness...
I don't know how I would have made it without joining the fandom.
It was liberating in ways beyond comprehension. Which is why I value every comment, every like, every crossover, every artist, every share, because this is a place that makes me felt belonged without having to hide who I am. Guess that's what brings us all together, huh?
Happy PRIDE Month 🏳️🌈
Extra bit of an update: I'm currently working on IRL projects at the moment, so I can't guarantee I'll have any writing done until August or so. Still will be uploading commissions now and again but all those other ideas still bounce around in my head.
It's been five years since I joined the fandom; which all traces back to this moment when
maikeru drew my characters Serena and Victor for the very first time. It was so simple, making a couple who I wanted to represent myself and things I enjoy, and yet it was life-changing. For a really long time, I was a lurker of the fandom. I was really unsure and insecure about myself, especially when I had so many fears attaching myself to labels of furry and queer. Especially when...what could I offer these talented artists and creatives?
Because of COVID and the state of the world; I wasn't sure what to do. My curiosity had boiled over. What would it matter at this point if I were found out? The world's in crisis enough. And then one day, I asked an artist I really liked to do a drawing of characters who I made up a month ago.
The level of euphoria I experienced getting just the sketches back was almost too much to bare. In that first hour like, I felt a very dormant part had tapped into me had exploded from the ground like a volcano. They were beautiful, they were adorable, and they were real.
And then slowly I became more confident moving from then onward, repeating that feeling again and again. More new characters, more artists to talk to, more people who recognized the beauty and societal constrictions over fatness, and more emotional splendor seeing two large people love each other.
Over the past years, several of my IRL relationships whittled down or frayed apart cause of so many reasons. Especially now as I'm middle-aged and might be on the cusp of learning I have a chronic illness...
I don't know how I would have made it without joining the fandom.
It was liberating in ways beyond comprehension. Which is why I value every comment, every like, every crossover, every artist, every share, because this is a place that makes me felt belonged without having to hide who I am. Guess that's what brings us all together, huh?
Happy PRIDE Month 🏳️🌈
Extra bit of an update: I'm currently working on IRL projects at the moment, so I can't guarantee I'll have any writing done until August or so. Still will be uploading commissions now and again but all those other ideas still bounce around in my head.
