Hey! If your reading this Journal, I appreciate the time of you even reading this thought and the subject of this journal in its entirety.

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I opted to write this, as more like a tweet, explaining my thoughts and so fourth without Twitters or Bluesky's word count restriction, given that its often hard to explain one's thoughts without an entire thread that no one might read, then again; not expecting someone to read this either lol - I just wish to express my thoughts personally and for you, the reader! to understand a perspective of me, at least before the month ends

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Many of you may know me, either through the works that I've commissioned, or as a friend. For years I've built connections and friendships that allow me to get up everyday for a better expectation of my day, The relationships online that I've forged with the server I initially created with others has honestly filled a hole for me, with the very people I surround with, often giving me more than I could ever ask for with the people around me, to which I am forever grateful of my friends that continue to support me; despite my past grievances acting upon my emotions with my problems, often leading to actions and thoughts that would potentially lead to self harm, which thankfully never acted upon or ever will. That it often gives me a lesson to learn for and how to adapt, as it allows me to get better for the better.

It's usually a hard journey to quell at the slightest, since it overshadows our judgement quite a lot, often leading us to prompt irrational things alike with our emotions if not checked. Something that used to overshadow me a lot back in the day with impromptu lashing out and anxiety, rushing into things awkwardly in manners that often left me filling unwell, or unsatisfied with the results which often threatened the very relationships that I've made, something I couldn't handle losing over; something I worked so hard to build up, just to lose over my emotions. It took me a long time to dig my way out of this hole, but forever thankful to the people around me who supported me through this endeavor, to which is why I often hold myself highly nowadays in being a good figure within my community and friends; In attempt to advocate for others in a safe space environment, despite my own minor mental struggles. Suffering in silence should not be an option for others, yet for so long to what I've noticed, it's often been the case of "getting over it" or "toughening up" at this point becoming a common belief of that perspective for others, often having to not ask for people's help in fear of backlash for asking; I try not to perform this at all, as it goes against everything I've been through and what I've stood for, having feeling the same sense of backlash; while often still anxious to reach out sometimes when feeling down. Its why I try and care for others a lot more deeply than a lot of people expect of a person, because often times I want to give that person the benefit of doubt in times uncertainty.

this is not to be a nitpick at anyone or anything, rather a message to be Cordial in times of uncertainty and struggle, to help with ease and healing of others in times of doubt and anxiety. As I hope this message reaches my followers and friends alike, in which I wish for the best of everyone. ❤️