to those that I owe something to:

I know I should give you more info much earlier and I'm sorry that I couldn't but I wanted you to know that I'm wasn't ghosting any of you, just wasn't able to use screens in general and even if I tried to, it was very hard for me to think straight

I'm a chronically ill person with a whole list of various conditions and one of them is chronic migraines
that type with sinus, vision and balance problems, aura, insomnia and vomiting and all that shit...

I'm not having them as often as I used to but when they do attack, it can last for weeks
they usually last for three days but can attack one after another so can go like 3 days pain - 1~2 days rest - 3 days pain - 1~2 days rest and so on
and when it finally stops, you notice that a whole fucking month went just above your head but all you dream of is sleeping for weeks and never waking up

but the work must be done and the bills must be paid
so I'm back, yeah

glad to see you again