Sometimes I worry I will never be able to kill the perfectionist that lives inside of me but I think I don't give myself enough credit at times. I have drawn messy for awhile now when before I tore myself down and gave up on drawings when it wasnt exactly perfect. I suppose sometimes I still feel as though there is more to come, but i've trapped myself with the idea that I will never be able to get where I want even though I have started that journery. I guess I find it funny, I make comms and adopts but want to sell my art to be messy and ugly. Isnt that counterproductive>? I ask myself, "Who will want my art when it looks like this." but. I have heard from my friends who tell me they love the way I draw, they love the messy look they love the stickers the paint the stratches. Being told someone would buy my traditional art or if I'd ever scan it and sell...They are reminders that I am getting somewhere. There is hope despite how I have sold myself the idea that there is no hope nor no way to come out of the hole I seemingly dug. I will continue to draw bad, I think its good for me.