It's a long story, and one that I am not particularly interested in recounting publicly on my page truthfully. I will only be sharing the information that I am comfortable doing so.

In the past, I have been prone to outbursts of violent actions and thoughts. This has happened throughout my entire life, and has never really stopped. A few years ago, I thought that I could control them on my own, as I had gone from acting violently to only speaking violently, and felt that it was acceptable enough to the point where I could handle them without professional help. Recently, I proved myself wrong. In retrospect, I have been speaking aggressively to my partners for a very long time. Whenever I had one of these outbursts, I would hurt one of my partners, or just one of my friends in general. It's been so long that I cannot even remember most of these outbursts, which may partially be because I repressed them and don't want to think of them. Today it got out of hand enough to the point where my partners have all chosen to break up with me, and never wish to speak to me again.

I have thought back and realized that I need to finally seek professional help, and I have spoken to my parents about it. Tomorrow (July 17th), I am going to speak to someone from a regional medical center about therapy, and my parents have promised that we will speak about this to my psychiatrist.

In the off chance any of those partners reads this: I am sorry. I truly am. I will miss you. If, at some point in the future, you decide to speak with me again, I promise you that I will have improved myself enough to where you will not regret it.