Hello everyone.

I am terrible about journalling my thoughts and I should probably start doing it more often. (I am totally not, but I am going to pretend like I will follow through anyway.)

This past weekend I volunteered to help through a trans therian satanic rave in the woods east of Seattle, and it left me thinking about a lot of things. First, the event went amazingly. Lots of great music, beautiful people, and an amazing time for everyone involved. Everyone who staffed it executed brilliantly, and the attendies made my job so easy and laid back I got to enjoy a lot of it even having to be sober. There was an energy in the air in the forest that night that was indescribable, so much love, community, joy, it really made me reflect on a lot of my own life's journey. I have sporadically journaled my thoughts throughout my life, and it's been tragic to look at past entries and notice that every time I wrote it was a low point in my life. From painful breakups, to being alone and friendless on my birthday, to seeing the scared little wolfess trapped inside the man my parents wanted me to be howling to be let out. It hurts to remember a lot of that stuff, and I wish I had wrote about at least some, any good that happened during that period, and I want to change that. This weekend was a triumph of some of the best people of my life, something I got to be included in. I got to see the good friends, lovers, partners, all gathered in this magical place and feeling free to be themselves along with me. It filled me with a sense of hope for the future, that despite whatever goes on in the crumbling state of our government and the hostilities that take place, we as animals, as transfolk, will make it through this.

These past couple years have been a rollercoaster, but for the first time in my entire life, I feel like I am happy with the life I am living and where it is going despite everything going on around me. I have a life and a community I would do anything and everything to protect, and I couldn't ask for anything more than that.